Sunday, April 17, 2011

CBWR? Chapter 1

Author's Notes

Disclaimer - All the Twilight stuff belongs to Stephenie Meyer. No copyright infringement is intended. I'm just cavorting on her checkerboard.

Summary - I'm tired of the dating scene. I'm tired of trying to be the nice boyfriend. I am letting go of the last scruple I have. I'm going to buy a slave.

****PLEASE READ BEFORE CONTINUING!****

This story is going to contain some harsh material. It has reference to human trafficking and sexual slavery, physical and emotional abuse. It does not romanticize sexual slavery or validate it in any way, shape or form. However, it is told entirely from the point of view of the person doing the buying, so you're going to be hearing some of his thoughts on the whole thing. Sometimes his naiveté on what he's doing is going to be a bit comical, but this is not a comedy. His twisted views are not the same as me, the writer, condoning any illegal real-life acts along the same lines, which are obviously heinous.

Surviving Bella is not a story about survival at sea. It is about an alcoholic dealing with his horrific past and trying to find a reason to go on, and the woman who helps him rediscover his soul.

This story is not about sexual slavery. It's about a man who thinks he's entitled to whatever he wants, and how he is going to deal with the consequences of his actions.

If you have read any of my other stories, you may see a bit of a theme when it comes to my Edwards. They ain't all right in the head. They have kidnapped Bella, been abusive, been alcoholics, been nutcases, been murderers, been douche-bags, been self-centered assholes, etc. Actually, the one with physical brain damage is the only one who wasn't an ass. Deeply flawed characters are far more interesting to me as subject material for writing. In the end, they tend to have grown up a bit, and those readers who stuck it out ended up at least having an understanding of why they were they way they were.

That said, if you don't think you are going to like the material, please don't read it. It's not going to hurt my feelings. If you start reading it and don't like it, please feel free to politely let me know why in a review (if you would like to do so), and stop reading. All others, just trust me. Chapters are short, and I'm going to update frequently (thank you QuantumFizzx). Don't dwell too much on the harshness of the beginning and start making assumptions on where this is going to go – everything happens for a reason, there is method to my madness, and at the time I write this (12 chapters in), I seriously doubt anyone will correctly guess where this is going.

Brave, trusting souls – continue on.


I was not a BDSM guy, really.


Could Be Worse, Right?

Could Be Worse, Right?

Prologue

I want a sex slave.

Fucking sue me.

I watched Kate’s delectable backside as it sauntered out of my office and out of my life. I should have known it wasn’t going to work from the very beginning, when she wouldn’t even let me open the car door or choose the fucking wine. If she refused all that on the first date, I probably should have ended it after the second. She lasted longer than the last few, at least nearly a month. Apparently she had decided I was way to Neanderthal for her tastes. Neanderthal. Nice.

Maybe it was my fucked up childhood, or maybe it was just because there was something fundamentally wrong with me. I didn’t really care. I just wanted a beautiful woman at the beck and call of my cock. It’s not like I didn’t return the orgasms. I’d fucked my name out of the mouth of every woman I’d been with, and usually had them begging for more. The problem was they just weren’t always on my time schedule. They had careers, or families or friends or whatever that got in the way of focusing on me and what I wanted. Did that make me a selfish prick?

Fine, it did. I didn’t fucking care.

I was not a BSDM guy, really. I didn’t have a play room full of canes and shit like that, though I didn’t see anything wrong with some silk scarves and maybe a pair of handcuffs. Having a woman listen to what I say and do it when I said it, yeah – I liked that idea. The thought of having a naked woman on her knees when I got home at night, ready to make me dinner or just bend over one of the dining room chairs – I liked that idea, too. I especially liked it when it came to me wanting to have a little stress relief in the form of a blow job in my office. I just wanted a hot chick to suck me off when and where I wanted it, and maybe be willing to take my cock up her ass. That would be a nice bonus.

Damn Kate. She didn’t even really consider that it might be fun for her, too.

I sighed and thought about calling Aro. The last three failed relationships had resulted in the same thought, but I had been way to chicken to consider it. I mean – he didn’t exactly run a dating business. The guy sold fucking slaves. Even if I managed to transfer the funds without one of my numerous accountants being all up my ass about it, it was still – in every sense of the word – slavery. The illegality of it aside, it was just fucking wrong, wasn’t it? Did I have any scruples left?

Aro had been at a New Year’s Eve party at the Country Club when I had just been dumped by yet another “I’m not here to be your slave” girlfriend. I had indulged just a bit too much Markers Mark 46 and must have spilled my drunken guts to some degree. Aro ended up having a little private conversation with me, and had certainly gotten my attention. I didn’t know where he got them, and I wasn’t about to inquire. I did value my life to some degree, and I knew when not to ask any questions.

I shook my head, silently telling myself not to entertain such ridiculous ideas. I wasn’t going to sink as low as to support that sort of illegal trade. I had plenty of other shady businesses to keep me a little paranoid – I didn’t need to bring my sex life into it as well.

For some reason I thought of Tanya, my high school sweetheart, if you could call her that. She was a strict vegetarian – refusing to eat anything that ever had a face or a mother. It didn’t stop her from sucking my cock, but she wouldn’t swallow, sighting the same beliefs. I always figured it was pointless – I mean, just because she isn’t going to eat the burger doesn’t mean it wasn’t going to get eaten. She could walk away with her moral nose in the air, but some fucker was going to sit down and bite into that big, juicy chuck of meat. The cow was dead, and her refusal to eat it wasn’t going to change that fact.

The girls are already slaves. They could end up with anyone who could use them for anything. It could be some fat bastard who would beat the shit out of them for fun, or some nutcase who makes snuff films. Shit, it really could be something like that. If I didn’t take a bite, someone else was going to in my place. If one of his girls didn’t end up on the end on my cock, she’d just be servicing another.

My hand was shaking as I pulled my cell phone from my pocket and started dialing the number. I didn’t know who she might be, or how she might have gotten herself into such a predicament, but in some ways I would kind of be saving her, wouldn’t I? I mean, I wasn’t interested in hurting anyone – I just wanted to stop with the dating game and still get my rocks off whenever and wherever I saw fit.

“Volturi here.”

“Hey Aro,” I found myself saying into the phone. “Edward Cullen here. I would like to talk to you about a purchase.”

She had to be better off with me, right?


Chapter End Notes:

I know exactly where this is going now. Do not fear! Well...fear a little bit.

34 comments:

  1. I am so sorry that the story was pulled by ff.net. I think that it was pulled because of all the negativity, coming from people, who have not read it beyond the first chapters. This is disregardful both to you and to the readers, who are interested in the story and read every chapter. You write about what happens, when a person acts stupidly and irresponsibly, and actually what happened to your story is so stupid and irresponsible!
    I would like to wish you all the best and I hope that you could laugh at the absurdity of all this. I am sure that your readers will continue to read the story on the blog.

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  2. wanted to start reading this after i caught up with uc. sad to see they pulled it from ff. glad you are able to post here so we can continue reading.

    tff000

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  3. I am loving your current story UC and followed the link to check this out. I really like your writing style.

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  4. wow can't wait to see where this is going. i love how people try to justify their actions anyway they can to try and make it seem like the right thing to do!!

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  5. -.-I'm reading this from my phone but it won't let me review, so read via phone, comment via pc later(stupid). I was expecting this to be darker but its not. Edward is such a bumbling idiot its cute.

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  6. wow can't wait to see where this is going. i love how people try to justify their actions anyway they can to try and make it seem like the right thing to do!!

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  7. Why is it that I am only JUST now finding your stories? This first chapter has me hooked. Onward I shall go. Thank you for sharing.

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  8. I was gonna comment on your Unexpecter Circumstances on fanfiction but couldn't remember my password to sign in, so I find my way into your blog and hooked on this story too. I really like your writing. I am now following you on tweeter, I'm no stalker or anything just though I'd let you know. Thanks for sharing!

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  9. Having read Surviving Bella and really enjoyed the ups and downs in that story, I'll read on and see what insane twist you have in mind with this premise. You definitely know how the make a smut festival suspenseful!

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  10. So i bumped into this on sum1s tweet on Twitter postin about Chapter 78 an i jus happened 2 click on it an was redirected here. When I read the Author's Note, i knew this was no ordinary Fanfic but sumtin way different. I knew dis was not goin 2 cover typical Edward or Bella. I was a little skeptical at first but I stil read on and I'm terribly hooked. Gr8 1st Chapter and i have 77 more to read so i'm on to it IMMEDIATELY!!!!! Lookin 4ward 2 da following chapts......

    Alot of ppl are nt open 2 dis reality of the world and I love dat u took characters that we all kno n love 2 convey that. but ppl need to realize that these things exist out there whether they like it or not!!!! I've been readin n reviewing a whole lotta fanfics these days & I truly tink ur writing style is amazing!!!! Gr8 job!!!!

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  11. I just discovered you fic! I'm very intrigued as to where this is going.

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  12. I'm starting to read your fic by a recomendation from Lullaby, I don't know much english, but what I've read so far, it's great

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  13. Just found this on twitter. read prologue and can't wait to read more. 88 chapters so far...good thing i have 3 weeks to do nothing.
     

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  14. I've read all your fics and was in the middle of H&D when CBWR? was recc'd on Twitter. I didn't even realize this fic existed. For some reason I kept thinking that it was a name for your blog that posts teasers of your fics on FFn.

    I'm intrigued by this story and can't wait to see where you'll lead me. Currently it's at 90ish chappies. You'll be my first fic that I'm giving chance to when it's a WIP that's over 40 chappies long!

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  15.  I'm intrigued.  I just started this fic and I've missed my fic reading habit.  I just had a baby in March and I'm craving something good to read.  I hope theres an HEA...I never know what to expect from your edwards!

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  16. Just gettin back to this one... I like to wait until tthe story is done.. can't stand the suspense..  Anyway.  You are great girl.  Been followin you since Hide and Drink.  Thanks for sharin bb.

    Charmain

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  17. OK, I saw I got the epilogue so I'm here to read.. I am quite sure he's right.. She had to be better off with him! ;) 

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  18. Edward has a very interesting thought process.  I can't say if I agree with him or not.  Yes she may be a slave already, and she may or may not be better off without him, but it's intriguing to hear him justify himself even when he clearly finds the situation wrong himself.  I have just found this.  And I can't wait to read the rest.

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  19. wow that was definitely an interesting one i followed the link over after i read the other not right in the head edwards you have going on
    lol
    (git git) 

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  20. nelariveracastilloJune 9, 2011 at 8:11 PM

    I like my edwards not right in the head!
    maybe because i'm not right in the head too.
    interesting analogy between vegetarianism and slavery

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  21. Someone was wondering about this out loud on ADF and it brought me here...I am definitely interested....I hope you're right and I don't know where it's going. I tend to be too perceptive for my own good with fics and am never very surprised. :)

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  22. Hi, I'm new here and I know that this story has been finished for awhile now, but I just had never read something by you. I got here taking a very long road (believe me, is to complicated to explain it) but I was on your profile on ffn and just saw this and decided to follow. So far no regrets, thanks so much for the warning at the beginning. It really is necessary because even I initially believed that this was going in a totally different direction.
     I kind of like this Edward, yeah he is a jerk but he's honest about it, even if it's in his own head. I specially liked his metaphor with vegetarianism, meat and all that. I don't have anything against it, but he does makes sense. 
    So, I'll be giving this fic a try, can't hurt and if at any point I just can't or don't want to read it any more I'll post a review about it like you suggested. 

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  23. OMG, I'm so excited. I'm a huge fan of SB and H&D...I had no idea you had another story that was not on ff.net.  I am ready to start reading right now, but thought I'd ask if you have this story in PDF?  I read all my fanfic on my Kindle, but I'm thinking it would be very tedious to try to pull the story from your blog. 

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  24. I was just reading one of your stories in FF.net and I have to say I love it.  I saw the link for this story and well all I to say is WOW! I do see that you do make Edward in a word "complicated" but that is why I find the story so interesting. I can't wait to keep reading!

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  25. I'm starting to read your fic by a recomendation from Lullaby, I don't know much english, but what I've read so far, it's great

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  26. I just recently got a kindle. Please share with me the magic trick needed to read FF on it? lol

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  27. Been meaning to read this for ahwile. I am a bit nervous about reading this skewed Edward, but I liked Hide and Drink and think you tell a good story. So here goes! ^_~

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  28. Chapter one where's chapter 2 D: it's been like 4 months >>

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  29. How glorious! My dumb ass just figure out there are 64 fucking chapters that are going to keep me up all damn night ;)

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  30. i haven't read surviving bella yet, but is this like a follow up of that in edward's point of view? and which should be read first if so? or does it matter? i think i might like this :D

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  31. Guess it's time to get addicted to another of your stories :)

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  32. I discovered your writing on FF and I've quickly become a bit because obsessed. I was happy to find your blog and this story! Excited to read more"

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  33. Excited for more and too bad FF pulled it, but glad you have it hear for me to read. :)

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