Thursday, May 19, 2011

CBWR? Chapter 97

Author’s notes:
I am not my own
For I have been made new
Please don’t let me go
I desperately need you
Owl City – Meteor Shower
“I never told you anything.”
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Chapter 97
Three days on suicide watch at a local hospital wasn’t really all that bad, except that I was under constant surveillance by both the hospital staff and a prison guard.  I was cuffed to the bed, which also sucked, big-time. 
Bella wasn’t allowed to visit.
Irina came to talk to me every day though, and she told me sometimes it took a giant step backwards in order to be able to move forward again.  She didn’t hide the fact that she was still pretty ticked off at me for considering what I had tried to do…well, not really tried…thought about…whatever.
I didn’t know if I really would have pulled the trigger or not.  Everything was kind of a blur in my memories – at least until Bella was there.
Irina also gave me a little detail of what happened that day.  She had been walking out of the building and heading home when she heard someone arguing with the front desk about visiting Edward Cullen.  She recognized Bella from the media accounts of my trial, though I hadn’t known Irina had ever looked any of that up.  Irina went up to Bella to talk to her, and to find out why she was coming to visit me.  Once Bella received my letter, she realized our messages had gotten crossed in the mail.  She pawned the wedding ring I had given her all that time ago to get a plane ticket to come and talk to me in person.  While they were talking, Irina was called about me being in her office with a gun.  She took the chance, and brought Bella in with her.
After my little ordeal in Irina’s office, Bella had to be taken out of the inmate’s area while I was placed back in cuffs.  It just about tore me in half.  I was about five seconds from being sedated when Irina reminded me that people did get visitors here, and if I wanted to be able to see her again I’d better shut the fuck up and start cooperating.
“Soon,” Bella whispered against my cheek.  “I love you.”
“I love you,” I replied, surprised at how easily the words came now – like the tiny hole in the dam that suddenly gives way to the flooding waters.
After the hospital stay, I was put on anti-depressants and my therapy sessions were increased to twice a week.  I also had to spend a week in solitary.
No visitors there, either.
It was kind of strange how anxious it made me feel not to be able to see anyone except Irina, when the day before all of this happened I hadn’t cared about visitors at all.  I didn’t even are about seeing other inmates, but I found I was missing the presence of both Seth and Embry, and not just because I could trade food with them.
Irina was still allowed to conduct our session from solitary, at least, but the guard had to be in there with us, so there really wasn’t much point.  I didn’t really want to talk about shit in front of that guy, and Irina picked up on that pretty quickly.  She kept our talks about what I was eating, if I was taking my medication when I was supposed to, and whether or not I still felt like I wanted to die.
My goals for getting out of prison were going to become the focus of the rest of my therapy – where I wanted to be, where Bella wanted to be, and how we were going to work together to make that happen.  Obviously, when the two of us were trying to deal with it alone we were not very successful.
After I was brought back into the normal prison population, I was allowed visitors on Wednesdays and Sundays.  Bella was there the first day I could see her.  It was only through Plexiglas, but I would take it.
I picked up the little handset on the pegboard wall, and Bella did the same.
“I love you,” we both said at the same time.  Bella’s cheeks turned red, and I couldn’t help but smile.  It made my face feel weird – I don’t think I had done that in a while.  For the longest time, we just looked at each other, but it wasn’t awkward at all – it just felt good.
“I’ve got a long way to go,” I finally said.  “But I’m going to do it, okay?  I swear to you, I’m going to be better when I’m out of here.”
“I will be, too,” she responded.  She took a deep breath and wiped a tear from the corner of her eye.  “It’s not going to be easy, is it?”
“Nothing worthwhile ever is,” I said.  “At least, that what Irina keeps tell me.”
“She’s your counselor,” Bella said with a nod.   “I like her.”
“I do, too,” I responded.  I reached up and ran my hand through my hair.  I didn’t want to hold anything back.  Irina said that was important – I needed to tell her everything.  “Um…she had the doctor put me on some pills.  For the depression.”
“Good.”  Bella’s hand reached forward and her fingers pressed against the Plexiglas.  I raised my free hand up and placed my fingers on the other side, lining up with hers.
“How are you?” I asked, and then had to kind of laugh at how lame the question was.  “I mean, really?  I know I must have…scared you.  Being like that.  With everything you said in your letter…shit, Bella – I had no idea-”
“I know you didn’t,” she said with a nod.  “How could you if I never told you?”
“I never told you anything.”
“No, you didn’t.”
“I’m sorry.”
“You’ve already apologized, Edward.  You don’t have to apologize for it again every time it’s brought up.  At some point, you have to let go.”
“Now you sound like Irina.”  I smiled and pushed my fingertips against the glass a little harder.
“It’s what Sue keeps tell me,” Bella said.  “She’s my counselor.”
“Figures.”
We just looked at each other for another minute, which was when the guard came up and give me my five minute warning.
“Bella…” My voice trailed off as I took a deep breath.  “I’ve still got a long time in here.  I’m not going to ask you to put your life on hold to wait for me.  It’s not fair to ask you to do that.  I have pretty much nothing to offer you as long as I’m here, and by the time I get out…shit, Bella – you could be thirty by then.”
“I know you aren’t asking me to,” Bella said.  “That doesn’t mean I won’t do it anyway.”
I took a breath, and it felt like my lungs were actually working correctly for the first time in a very long time.  I was still torn – the selfish part of me that wanted her to wait, and the other parts that wanted to say I wasn’t good enough for her.
But I was going to be.
I was going to make sure I was the kind of man she needed me to be before I got out of here.
“You still have to do what you need to do for yourself, too,” I told her.  “You have to finish college and have a life outside of me.”
“I know.”  Bella sighed.  “I’ve been trying.”
“I’ll try to help you,” I promised.  “Anyway I can – just tell me what you need from me.”
“Don’t close me out,” she said immediately.  “Don’t do what I did, and sugar-coat everything.  I want to know how you really are.”
“You too, right?”
“Right.”  Her eyes locked with mine, and I was captivated by her gaze.  I could have just looked at her for the rest of my sentence.  No problem.
“Time’s up, Cullen.”  The guard tapped the edge of the wall.
“What do we do from here?” I asked her.
“What do you want to do?”  She really did sound like a fucking therapist.
“I want to figure out what I need to do to still have you in my life when I leave here,” I told her.  “If you want me to be, anyway.”
“I do,” she responded immediately.  “How do we make it work?”
“I don’t know,” I admitted.  “But I’m going to figure it out.”
 Where there’s a will there’s a way, right?
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Chapter end notes:
They are both learning, right?
Scooby snacks all around!
100 chapters is still my target.  Not sure if that will be the exact number, but it calls to my OCD.  Nice, round number…mmmmm….

105 comments:

  1. Aw so two more chapters left? nice! :)

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  2. I am so happy to see they are going to work together I am so looking forward to the next chapter 

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  3. I hope there is a way.   

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  4. I'm anxious to see how you will end this story.

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  5. I feel like I can take a nice, cleansing breath now. And relax. ;) They're not threw the woods, but at least they can see there's a path to take, and that they're both on it.

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  6. right doofy. you've never been so right! but I believe you'll be out sooner than later...

    hey savage, 111 is a very good number too, don't think? since we are in 2011 and all.... 

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  7. Another great chapter! YAY! Bella finally came to see him. The timing couldn't have been more perfect. Lol. 

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  8.  A nice number for OCD... and I totally get it. (I have a daughter to has a flippin' panic attack if she has to use an uneven number of eggs when baking/cooking.) But I'll want more than 100... cuz that's only TWO MORE. And... I want to see how they do. If they manage to find a way together or if they don't. What will become of them? 

    Love this story. It's been on my mind so much the last few days. 

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  9. LOL, your OCD is very appealing, I must admit.

    Hell, at least 10 more years inside? How about you put him in a productive project that will grant him early parole?

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  10.  They are learning

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  11. Yay!!! I've been stalking your site for a bit now...so happy to see this. I do NOT like your a/n, tho. 100=:( back to happy: you're good to hint at a realistic HEA. After schizward, you make me nervous, lol. I just live this pair & think E deserves his shot. After all this time.

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  12. I hope there is some money somewhere that will allow them to live in peaceful seclusion, just like BD ;)

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  13.  110 chapters is also a nice number! This was a great chapter!

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  14. 150 is a nice round number. 200 is even a better rounded OCD number!

    Love your story, love your characters, and love your writing style. It's love all around especially now that Edward and Bella are back together talking. Thanks for a fresh new read in the Fanfic world! You are just great!

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  15. can peeps in jail get married?

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  16. 100 is a nice balanced number but 111 is as well.... in fact 121 is a pretty nice number... see where I'm going here? 

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  17. Yes progress on both sides. He needs to get involved with something in Prison to pass the time and hopefully use when he gets out. Don’t know how you will wrap up in just a few chapters, but looking forward to seeing how it all works out for these two.

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  18. I don't want this story to end.  It's been thrilling!  Thanks so much. You're the best Savage.

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  19. 114 chapters? Please, I want more!
    Btw, I loved it!

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  20. Finally confessions all around. This relationship could be a beautiful thing, right?
    Thanks for a terrific story and giving me something to look forward to every day.

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  21. And they talk, finally!, and their lives together can begin.  Now, we need to bring Edward a big cake with a file in it or an author who can use her powers of persuasion to get him fixed and out of there real soon!! 

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  22.  Nope you can't finish in 3 more chapters. I need life outside of prison, marriage, babies and a big fat hea. Come on don't end this one me now i have to get my daily fix. 
    Seriously though i love this story and will be sad when it ends but i think you have done a great job with it. I admit at first i was kinda stand offish towards the whole buying a sex slave concept but within a few chapters you had me hooked. 
    Thank you for giving me something to look forward to every day.

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  23. Have I said that I love this story? OH YEAH! A bunch of times! :) It's about time these two start telling each other everything about how they feel and what they are going through. Communication is always key! The unison "I love you's" was too freaking sweet! Is it too much to ask for 11O chaps? LOL That's even too! :D

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  24. If Edward was  a couple days in the hospital and then a week in solitary, where did Bella stay during those two weeks. Is she at a college nearby?
    I think the biggest change in Edward was how much he opened up to Bella and repeatedly tells her he loves her. I found it interesting to see where a couple of weeks ago he probably would have been content in solitary confinement, he now wants to interact with others. Those aren't tiny steps for him, that was a huge fucking leap.
    Though it scares me that 100  is only three chapters away, I think you can make it happen. I can sense the closure right around the corner. I just don't know what to do without my daily dose of these two. Maybe I need a counselor too.

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  25.  I just let out a big sigh of relief. After I posed my comments last night, I started thinking what if he really was dead. I am glad they seem to be trying to work things. HEA after all?

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  26. Such a ring of REAL here...

    Well done!!! 

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  27. Oh, and if you go OVER 100, there won't be any complaints!!! 

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  28.  Ahhh,  finally a little communication. I had actually thought about her selling that ring but I wasn't sure if she would part with it or even if she still had it, all things considered. The can start down the path to healing together now on the same page. Hopefully, Bella can convince Renee to move closer to the prison or give her some of the insurance money so she can and maybe get into a school there too. They both have plenty of time for both of them to get their education before Edward gets out. Thank God Irina proved to be one of the "good guys". Maybe she can help get Bella relocated and counsel her too. They have the potential to be really good together when all of this is over. I hope if there are only a couple of chapters left that they are really obnoxiously long chapters because I'm a greedy bitch and I really need closure. :)

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  29. Yea!
    She still had her wedding ring . . . could it be that she refused to sign the annulment papers and they are still married?  Had she worn it the whole time?

    So sorry to hear that there are only a few chapters left . . . but you are used to me whining . ,. ,

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  30. Please reconsider writing more chapters. They have so much to go through now and after he gets out. Please!!! Thank you for writing this, I love it!

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  31. 200 is a nice round number too.

    great chapter, thanks for the update! 

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  32. sneaky read at work!  I feel releaved and still sad...
    progress is progress.  still pain though 

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  33. Hmmmm I think maybe 110 sounds a little more rounder..haha.  Love it, they are talking and on the way back...maybe not back cuz neither was probably ever in the right place, but they are on their way to a good place.  He's gonna be so old by the time he gets out.  He needs to get out early...please
    love your writing so much Shay!!!!!
     

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  34. Only 100 huh? How are you going to cover so much in such a short time? 150 is a nice number also? LOL! Thanks for this story! I still need to read Hide and Drink! Maybe I will go there next! Whatever you create has to be wonderful! You have a gift! Glad you are sharing it with us!.......karen

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  35.  Oh wow, Doofy saying wise words and shit. I'm impressed. So Bella came there all by herself, good girl. Honestly, I don't see how their long-distance relationship could work if he does the whole sentence. Maybe he'll be released earlier though...

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  36. ohhhhhhhh mayneeeeeee.............This chapt was a fcukin release!!!!!!! I hardly cried......*key word HARDLY* Ting are up n betr........ Bracin maself for 3 more chapts *tears agen* its comin 2 an end!!!! Kinda sad 2 tink about but u've got a life rite & dis needs sum sort of closure. I hope its A HAPPY ONE!!!! looks like that thus far...lets keep it goin shall we!!!!! #Smilez all round!!!!!

    Beginnin 2 tink  about wat i wil do wen there's no more CBWR? to suscribe 2 evryday?!?! Mayb I need to speak to Irina or Sue!!!!!!! Cuz i honestly hav NO FCUKIN CLUE. Mayb UC but dat wil nevr b sufficient knowin dat soon enuff dat wil b ovr too. Mayb Surviving Bella next?!?! Intriguing thought........*well worth considering*

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  37. FIRST edward you call bitch aka Alice get her to give Bella the money she said she would
    bella buy a house and a bissness cafe or something
    get you a hot shot lawyer how will get you out on some gronds
    you behave so they let you out only have done 2/3year in jail, get married life happy ever after but keep see irain to help you and make some babys:0

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  38. So glad Bella stayed in town to see him... hope she comes on Sunday too. I wish they would pay a visit to the Prison Chaplain... so they can get married and have conjugal visits. I bet her parents made her get their first marriage annulled... she probably didn't want to...now would be different. They know they are in-love. Maybe Edward could get his degree while in prison. Anyway, about the number of chapters another story I love has 129 chapters and 100 was her original goal. The Epilogue is still outstanding though and then there will be 130... sounds like a nice round number to me. Just saying. I love your story so much. 

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  39. 100 or 200, it doesn't matter. I will love it regardless. 

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  40. cullencougerwannabeMay 19, 2011 at 12:17 PM

    Well, Happy Birthday to me!! Thanks for the lovely present of this chappie!! & since it's still my birthday (& I'm a greedy b!tch), in lieu of a brithday party planned & thrown by Alice, & hopefully avoiding any near-attacks by Jasper, PLEASE may I have another.... or 10?! :D 

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  41.  I loved this!!!!!!! You are a hell of a writer!!!!!!!! My fingers are itching to get home to make some manips.... I swear I have THE perfect pic for this chapter!

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  42. Damn, girl! 
    Do you know how to write a story or what?
    Is there a way to download this after it's finished? I want to keep it forever.
    I had to chuckle over all the suggestions about how many chapters there should be. No matter how many it will never be enough, because we love these two so much.
    I only have two more words for you...........conjugal visits!
    (Wiki it.Very interesting).

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  43. Loved the chapter. I really wish we could get more detail of how life works out with these two (another wedding and even babies and all, which I usually don't like in stories but I'm willing to make an exception here). Three more chapters means this is going to be a freaking huge open ending, or things will get rush out, and I'm not trilled about either one :(

    You want a nice round number? How about 300, or even better 500, that one is really pretty, right?

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  44. OMG, these two are going to be the death of me. The last few chapters had me all over the place. I'm so glad to see progress on both sides but it's still scary to think he almost killed himself. On a side note, am I the only one worried that she might lose that ring? How is she going to pay the back money back? She probably used most of it with her extended trip and that is a lot of money. Well, I mean, I guess it depends on the shop but still I'm wondering about that ^_^ Oh and I really like Irina :D

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  45. Yep, where there's a will, there's a way.  Good luck, kids.

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  46.  I was wondering where she stayed, too. I thought maybe she wouldn't get to see him because she would have to go back.

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  47. 100 is a good round but can u wrap it up in 2?

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  48. This is the first day in quite a few chapters that I haven't been bawling.....I had tears, but of (some) joy!

    I think your OCD should allow a few more chapters, just to make all of your crazy, loyal fans happy, too!  I think 110 should do it!  LOL!

    Edward and Bella both are showing some maturity.  At least they are both on the same page about being in love with one another!  I truly hope, after all this sadness and angst, they can make it somehow.

    Thanks, bb....you ARE the BEST!

    xoxoxoSus 

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  49. Savage, don't be a slave to the OCD...you can aim for that number, but please don't force the chapters to match it, lol.  :-P

    So, things are finally looking up.  I did wonder about the wedding ring earlier—why she didn't pawn it before if she wanted to see him so badly, seeing as it was worth such a shitload of money.  But I think I understand why she didn't.  She was trying to hold onto that last piece of him, that last piece of their time together.  Well, that's one theory, anyway, and it may be completely different from what you had in mind.  I'm glad she still had the ring for this occasion—didn't use it to help her family's financial difficulties or anything.  It's harder to fly in to rescue your lover when Alice isn't there to pay for the tickets and steal the Porsche!

     (Come to think of it, did she still have the ruby bracelet?  Not worth as much as the ring, I'm sure, but probably still enough to help her out!)

    I think my favorite moment in this chapter was when they lined up their hands with each other on the plexiglass, reaching for that connection even though they couldn't touch.  I wonder how soon he can be up for parole.  Certainly Irina will put in a good recommendation for him at this point—it's not as if he's likely to be a repeat offender.  In the meantime, I hope both he and Bella make the best of the situation—maybe he can work on some sort of education or training as well?  They have job training programs in prison, right?

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  50.  They do have a long way to go, but as Edward said, now that they are "together" it's going to be easier for both of them. It has to.
    Our guy is lucky, he has an amazing counselor and his girl is right there. I can't believe about the ring, although thinking about it it makes a lot of sense. She kept it. She wouldn't have pawned it if it wasn't for something like this. Although I hope they find a way to get it back. 
    As for the number of chapters... 111 looks well too don't you think? 
    And I loved a comment about conjugal visits... ;) just saying...

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  51. Just a side note about Bella pawning her "wedding ring". I think if these two wound up married they would want to start over fresh with everything, including rings. Let go of the past ugliness. 

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  52. I hope he gets out before that! Oh I dont want to see it end! 

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  53. Shay I loved this chapter so much, especially the part when they put their hands up to the glass together. It brought tears. I am hoping Bella finds aa way to stay wherever this prison is, goes to school and can visit him two/three times a week, whatever the they allow. Alice should finance that with some of the money she stole from Edward, the Bitch! But that is pretty far fetched, I imagine. She hates Edward for what he did, unless Bella can make her see how good he is for her and how he has changed. I imagine Irina will go to bat for him to get his sentence reduced. Hope so anyway. 

    I know you want this to end, it must be hard updating two sometimes three times a day, but we are a selfish demanding lot here and can only beg and grovel at your talented fingers to keep it going a bit longer for we arent't ready to let our Edward go yet...not yet.

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  54. Shay I loved this chapter so much, especially the part when they put their hands up to the glass together. It brought tears. I am hoping Bella finds aa way to stay wherever this prison is, goes to school and can visit him two/three times a week, whatever the they allow. Alice should finance that with some of the money she stole from Edward, the Bitch! But that is pretty far fetched, I imagine. She hates Edward for what he did, unless Bella can make her see how good he is for her and how he has changed. I imagine Irina will go to bat for him to get his sentence reduced. Hope so anyway. 

    I know you want this to end, it must be hard updating two sometimes three times a day, but we are a selfish demanding lot here and can only beg and grovel at your talented fingers to keep it going a bit longer for we arent't ready to let our Edward go yet...not yet.

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  55. Shay I loved this chapter so much, especially the part when they put their hands up to the glass together. It brought tears. I am hoping Bella finds aa way to stay wherever this prison is, goes to school and can visit him two/three times a week, whatever the they allow. Alice should finance that with some of the money she stole from Edward, the Bitch! But that is pretty far fetched, I imagine. She hates Edward for what he did, unless Bella can make her see how good he is for her and how he has changed. I imagine Irina will go to bat for him to get his sentence reduced. Hope so anyway. 

    I know you want this to end, it must be hard updating two sometimes three times a day, but we are a selfish demanding lot here and can only beg and grovel at your talented fingers to keep it going a bit longer for we arent't ready to let our Edward go yet...not yet.

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  56. sigh ..... i need more 

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  57. ok unless you skip a few years i dont think 100 is gonna work, 150 maybe. 200 makes my heart sing, granted having UC back would be nice lol. i get smut every chapter in that one...almost. ;)

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  58. I like edaddict3254 idea. 200 is a nice round number. I just don't want to see this end so soon. I want to see him get out early by some loop hole in the law. Then for them to reunite and mabe some lemons, a wedding, kids etc. etc. Not sure if you will grant me my wishes but it can't hurt to ask. LOL

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  59.  I agree.  The new ring he would get her would have to be more modest, of course, but I think that fits the kind of life they'd be trying to build.  How expensive the ring is shouldn't matter, only the meaning behind it.

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  60. I couldn't agree more. The old ring while reminding them of how they fell in love would also remind them of their not so pretty times. I think a new ring for a new beginning is appropriate. Though I imagine that Bella had a very hard time giving her ring to a pawn shop. It was the only thing she that she had of Edward.

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  61. Lord have mercy... You said you'd end it around 100 and you're at 97 already.  I'm doing my best NOT to have a panic attack but geezus woman... it's really hard to do.  I so want them to have a HEA... but can that happen in only 3 short chapters?!  I agree with edaddict3254... 200 is a nice, round, lovely number too... XoXoX 

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  62. there are losts of round numbers 120, 140 160, etc....  
    thanks for the update... do you really think you can wrap it up with 4 more chapters?  the whole thing is making me depressed though!!  :)

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  63. 200 sounds good to me too! I just don't wanna let them go yet, ok ever. Maybe 150? 120?? Please?!?

    Much love n thx for writing this!
    Annie

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  64.  Yes they both are still learning and I am certainly beginning to appreciate a love fought hard for.

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  65. man i hope he gets out before she is thirty. 

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  66. 100 chapters? But that's only like,,,3 more !!!!  I am not sure I can let go of your characters that soon. Can you? They are just beginning to get back on track with one another. I think it's going to take more than 3 to get all their crap figured out, just saying. As edaddict3254 just commented, 200 is a nice round number as well...

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  67. Can you dirty pirate-hookers (and I say that lovingly) not count??? Lol!! If she ends it at 100, that's 3 more chapters not 2. Unless you mean 2 more and an epi...

    Anyway, I like the number 111 much better as others have suggested. But its your story Savage, so its all up to you, bb. I personally believe that a story is done when its done, not bc of a number, but that's just me. Opinions are like assholes, right? Haha.

    So what's next? Conjugal visits? Eddie picking up trash on the highway? Isn't he going to have to register as a sex offender when he gets out? Oy... poor Doofus.

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  68. *inhales.. exhales.... slowly... carefully... calms self* Okay okay, so its all going to be alright... everything's going to work out, right?? :)

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  69. 111 is a nice number too!  LOL 

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  70. hey, thanks for putting him on anti depressants. I feel like you listened to me !!!!
    But he truly needed some meds to lift him out of it.  Now the therapy can really help him - and Bella of course.  And hey, I didn't cry today - thank you for that.  It's funny how this little fic that i thought would be a throwaway has turned out to be so much more than that.  amazing how good it is.  well, not amazing, because all your stories are that good. can't wait to see if we get to see them united or not.  either way, I know they will be one day.....I am the one who actually needs the medicine because I truly believe somewhere there is a named Edward in prison and a young girl waiting for him!!!!!! 

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  71. I love the idea of her 'pawning' the ring he gave her. That marital symbol, like the honeymoon, was an allusion and needed to be sacrificed because they had to tear it all down and start over. That was not just a symbolic act that brought her to him in that fateful moment,as we see them  reach out to each other despite the glass, years, pain, and everything else that separates them, and that just 'pwns' me.

    I love the idea of them writing letters, writing down the day to day things great and small, questions and epiphanies; as they get to know each other, and they get to know themselves. How many famous lovers have great love letters to show for it? I for one, truly believe in the power of letter writing, non?

    100 makes perfect sense because you did give us your all, savage...
     

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  72. 3 more chapters? Seriously? THREE?!!!!! Have you thought about therapy for your OCD? I've heard that aversion therapy is good, where you confront your problem head on ..... try writing, I dunno, 8 more chapters, making 105.  Not quite a round number but still neat.  Honest to God, I could reading at least another 10... or 20....  Hate it when any of your fics ends, they are just too bloody good.  

    I was wondering what Bella's living on at the moment, I can't imagine she had much left over after she bought her ticket, unless maybe Irina's putting her up. I guess Edward's likely to get parole after 8 years, as he's pretty much kept out of trouble and is getting therapy.  That means he's got another 6 to go.  I think he was about 29 when this started, so he's going to be pushing 40 when he gets out.  I hope he has some money stashed because otherwise it's going to be tough for them to be together if Bella has to keep find money to fly back and forth across the country, even with her dad's life insurance - and how will Renee feel about Bella spending money from her father's death to visit the man she must blame for it?

    Also, I know Edward signed the annulment papers, but did Bella?  Even with everyone telling her to do so, the fact that she kept her ring means that maybe she didn't sign and they're still married.  Could that mean they might be entitled to conjugal visits?  Just a thought!

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  73. *flings a case of Scooby Snacks like confetti*  :D

    *and applauds for the endeavoring duo*   Popcorn anyone?  This is getting good! ;D

    Thanks!!!

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  74. AWWW how sweet.  They both want to be together and she's willing to wait.  And more important - he's willing to try to change.  

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  75. Amiga, I love the lead in for the chappie.  We really don't belong to ourselves . . . Did you know that OCD loves repeating numbers? Like 1111

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  76. My OCD says that it needs to be an odd number. I'm just throwing it out there.
    I truly enjoy reading this. The characters that you have created are truly wonderful and original.

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  77. omg i am so pleased that he's ok and that she's ok and that they're both working on their shit!! it seems like something really has clicked inside of edward cos he's so open and completely honest with bella it's just wonderful! i love that she wants to wait for him why wouldn't she anyways!

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  78. Alright Savage, you have to admit that while 100 is a nice round number and is predictable for OCD people, it is just not you. You don't do predictable. You don't do the "norm". You are different, and UNpredictable. So, you know, 113 sounds good. Or even 133 :-)  And come on, I mean can you really see wrapping these two up that quickly?  We have been on this twisted journey with you, and none of us are ready for this ride to be over yet. Please? We have no problems begging you for more.
    Anywho, chapters are great. Love that he wrote to Renee. That should prove to be interesting. Need some more B&E hotness in the future. They deserve it. (as do we! LOL).
    If you write more than 100 chapters for us I will provide the second and third rounds of scooby snacks! :-)

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  79. Yes, they are definitely learning...just don't make them wait until she's
    thirty and he's almost forty until they get together again...life is too damn
    short.


    One thing bugs me though: why did she wait so long to sell that ring and get
    the money she needed for airfare?
     

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  80.  My internet was down all day yesterday. So i went to McDonald's with iPad and read your updates. I am hooked ...BAD

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  81. ha ha, that is SO true;D)

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  82. Any even number can be nice round. One thing that surprised me about prison is that they have to pay for medicine stamps etc, cigarets. How is Edward doing that? 

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  83.  Awww, who would have thought they could have turned out this adorable from chapter 1. Another fantastic chapter!

    ~Jessi

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  84.  The heartache is almost too much to take.

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  85. I love the manip! Such a great chapter. Maybe Edward cout get off on good behavior? 

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  86. I'm hoping he isn't in for the whole sentence or even the 8 years. Maybe something will be overturned or what ever its called.

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  87. Round numbers pffft!! I like the number 784 ok? I have also come to realise I am addicted to exclamation points!!  Weird right??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Thet are starting to get somewhere now!

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  88. Ah, hard hitting honest direct communication. They are both on the same page and committed to getting better. This is how it has to happen if there are to have a HEA. I hope they get to a point where they can recapture the feeling in Paris.

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  89. I hope Alice, Emmet and the gang have left him some of his assets. He should have something to help Bella and he start over. Alice/Rosalie were so protective of Bella before why aren't they around to help now?

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  90. Love knows no boundaries...and can conquer all. Right?

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  91. Scooby snacks. Heh. Yer funny.

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  92. Oh, and also, my stomach is in knots, but my heart is happy.

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  93. Can you dirty pirate-hookers (and I say that lovingly) not count??? Lol!! If she ends it at 100, that's 3 more chapters not 2. Unless you mean 2 more and an epi...

    Anyway, I like the number 111 much better as others have suggested. But its your story Savage, so its all up to you, bb. I personally believe that a story is done when its done, not bc of a number, but that's just me. Opinions are like assholes, right? Haha.

    So what's next? Conjugal visits? Eddie picking up trash on the highway? Isn't he going to have to register as a sex offender when he gets out? Oy... poor Doofus.

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  94. 100 is a good round but can u wrap it up in 2?

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  95. Please reconsider writing more chapters. They have so much to go through now and after he gets out. Please!!! Thank you for writing this, I love it!

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  96. And they talk, finally!, and their lives together can begin.  Now, we need to bring Edward a big cake with a file in it or an author who can use her powers of persuasion to get him fixed and out of there real soon!! 

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  97. Yes progress on both sides. He needs to get involved with something in Prison to pass the time and hopefully use when he gets out. Don’t know how you will wrap up in just a few chapters, but looking forward to seeing how it all works out for these two.

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  98. I'm anxious to see how you will end this story.

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