Friday, May 13, 2011

CBWR? Chapter 80

Author’s notes:
Yay!!!  Blogger back up!  Hopefully, they will test out there code changes a little more thoroughly next time.   Shall I bore you with a lot of author’s blah blah blah, or get on with the smut?  Yeah, I figured…
Seriously, though - 80???  80 Chapters?? Geez!!!
“I want it to be right.”

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Chapter 80
She lay down in the middle of the heart.
All I could do was stare at her.
It wasn’t just how fucking hot she looked lying on the bed, waiting for me to climb in and take her virginity.  It wasn’t the little voice inside my man bits that wanted to become a lot better acquainted with her lady bits.  It wasn’t even the nervousness I felt from the sheer responsibility of making her come – first time or not. 
It was the waves of tension washing over my skin, through the muscles of my arms and legs, up and down my spine, and even behind my eyes.  It was the brutal need to just be in her presence, not matter what we were doing.  It was wanting nothing more than to just look at her until I dropped dead from starvation or scurvy or rickets or something.
What the hell are rickets, anyway?
Bella smiled slyly, and then raised her arms up over her head, laying them against the pillow as she stretched out her body.  The image was stunning, and I was stunned.  Soon after the shock wore off, I started to panic.
Even though I had done this before – even though I had seen her before – I had known I wasn’t going to be taking it any farther then.  Knowing apparently made all the difference, because I was now just about as freaked out as I could be.
“Edward.”  Bella’s soft voice broke through my thoughts, and I met her gaze.  “Come here.”
She used her finger to beckon me, and I tried to keep my eyes focused on hers as I climbed into the bed and lay my head on the pillow next to hers.  She reached over with her hand to touch the side of my face, and I felt myself relax a little into her touch.  Not a lot, but at least enough to pull my thoughts back together.
“Why are you worried?” Bella asked.
“I want it to be right.”
Her fingers grazed my jaw.
“It will be.”
When I met her eyes again, I could just tell she meant it.  She had complete faith in me, though I was pretty sure that was as misguided as it could possibly be. 
She leaned closer and took my mouth with hers, licking across my lip before sucking it into her mouth.  We kissed slowly but deeply until Bella finally broke for air.  I didn’t think I needed any – I was quite sure I could just live off of Bella – oxygen could become secondary.  Her fingers scraped my jaw again as she smiled at me.  I took a deep breath, deciding that if she could have that kind of confidence in me, I’d better be prepared to prove her right.
“I’ll go slow,” I told her.
Bella only nodded in response.
I propped myself up on one elbow so I could use my other hand to just touch her.  My fingers slid down over her shoulder, across each of her collarbones and over her breasts.  I only touched her lightly – and I felt her shiver under my fingertips.
“Are you cold?” I asked, glancing over at the slightly opened window, which was letting in cool fall breezes.
“No,” she said quietly.  “I’m fine.”
Nodding, I cupped one of her breasts in my hand, lifting it up a little and marveling at how well it fit in my hand.  I drew circles around her nipples, watching them pucker and harden under the sensation.  Just seeing them do that was making me harder by the second, but I tried to forget about that and concentrate on her.
I wanted it to be good for her.
With one finger, I made a trail from the spot right between her breasts down to her navel, circled it, and then ran the backs of my fingers from one hip to the other.  My fingers grazed over the top of where her pubic hair used to be.  Bella’s legs shifted a little, and she pushed her thighs together.  I smiled, realizing exactly what she was doing.
“Do you want me to touch you again?” I asked.
“Yes.”  Her breathy whisper was all the encouragement I needed.
Her skin was so soft and smooth without any hair down there anymore, and for a minute I just palmed her right above her clit, feeling her smooth skin against mine.  When her hips lifted up, I let my fingers drift lower and between her legs, which she moved apart a little.  There was already a little moisture when I felt down between her pussy lips, spreading her open with two of my fingers while the third ran up and down her slit.
“Oh God, Edward…that feels so good.”
I put the tip of my finger inside of her a bit, pushing it in and out slowly until more went in easily.  Once all of it was in, I pulled it out and ran the wetness over her clit, causing her to gasp.  I moved down lower – wanting to get better access – and ran both of my hands up her thighs and over her hips before my hand went back between her legs, slowing pushing into her, coming back to rub her clit, and then delving inside again.
With my finger still inside her, and my thumb pressing lightly down on her clit, my mouth went searching for the skin on her side.  I pulled my finger out, and then slowly pushed two back inside of her again.  I kissed her hipbone, then over to her navel, where I tongued her, eliciting a giggle.  Her hand went to my head, and her fingers latched onto my hair.  I looked up at her and found her staring back at me with her lip stuck between her teeth.  My fingers were so wet with her juices, and I wanted to pull them out and suck on them.  I wanted to replace my fingers with my tongue and feel her come all over my face.
“I want to taste you,” I told her, and her eyes went wide.
Shit. 
She said she never wanted to do oral again…did she mean this, too?  She looked upset, worried, maybe even panicked, and I thought she was going to end up actually puncturing her lower lip with her teeth.  Shit, shit, shit.
I must have fucked this up already, right?
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Chapter end notes:
So…is she going to let him go down on her?  Shall we hold a poll?  Shall she hold his pole?  Shall she sell sea shells by the sea shore?
Shall I shut up?
Next chapter…um…soon!

57 comments:

  1. Let's hold bold poles! Eh fuck it he should definitely go down on her, especially since the wax job is fresh.

    Yay you're back I missed you :)

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  2. Now for the big question - are the comments working?

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  3. Dear Author  :)
    As to comments - I hope they are working....
    As to your many "Sh" questions (and tongue twisters - pun intended ?)  .... do whatever you want - I will be here waiting ....

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  4. I can see me so everything is ok

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  5. Oh Thank GAWD!! I was srsly having freakin' withdrawal symptoms w/o an update to this story yesterday! So glad Blogger seems to be getting their sh!t together! Bring on the good times now! I'm lovin how seemingly relaxed Bella is, well, up til that last bit. Come on Girl, be Brave Bella & just go with it!!! It'll rock your world!!
    Can't wait for the next update!! :D

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  6. I'd be content to hold Doofy's pole while Bella decides about the oral. 

    Thanks for the chapter.

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  7.  I'm not so sure anonymous ones are...they aren't showing at least.  Ah well!  If you want to be seen, you may have to log in.  The annonymous ones will prob show up soon enough.

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  8. Yeah, he should go down! Will Bella like it? MMM! I think she will! LOL! How do you become a sex slave but still be a virgin? That thought is hysterical! Edward is trying to be so sweet, gentle, slow! Good man! ( not dufus right now) glad the blogger is fixed! Missed this!

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  9.  She better fucking say yes!!! Christ it's like slow torture!!!!!

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  10. loved it. yeah bella let him go down on you

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  11. Oh god, I'm gonna need some Edward too!  Wrong, Edward, you haven't fucked it up already...you need to find a little faith in yourself, not just use Bella's!

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  12. This story is making my vacation so much better!  Thanks for sharing.  Unf, can not wait for the next chapter!   

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  13.  She is so going to let him go down on her. Maybe she will hold his pole too. LMAO

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  14.  Sweet baby Jesus on a pony! I'm about to pass out!

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  15. Uhmm... I think she is just opposed to fellatio.. right now.. not cunnilingus. (Yep- using clinical terms.. never sound as sexy tho). I think she's just nervous for a dude to go down on her for the first time. That's all. I hope.

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  16. I am trying to breathe right now, but I can't.  I am on pins and fucking needdles.   

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  17. I have every confidence that Edward will convince her that him going down her will be the best thing that's ever happened to her.

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  18. hold his pole definitely, no time for sea shells!

    Jane

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  19. Holy hell. I changed my mind. Don't take too long, I can't take it. LOL. Or write faster if this is to last much longer. LOL 

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  20.  oh doofus there you are shes young shes never had it she'll understand soon lol

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  21.  She is just young and doesn't understand that it is AMAZING having the cunni! She just needs a little encouragement from Edward....I know he'll make her feel good!

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  22. Ii would say, all the above,  why not?

    thanks for the update. yesterday was a little scary.
    these story just cant get a break, can' it?

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  23. Yay!!! Welcome back!
    So...Eddie's really freaked - who the heck thinks about rickets and scurvy during a make-out session? Hope he does get to 'taste' her. I think she's more freaked cuz it's a new thing.
    BTW, was re-reading while waiting for updates. Edward posed a question about why Bella was still in high school. Was that a hint for something big to be revealed later? Or was that just a passing comment? If she wasn't a virgin, I would've suspected she took a year off to have a baby. But that's not possible. But the reference has me wondering.
    Can't wait for more! Thanx! 

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  24. Hell yes he should go down on her! She may even think going down on him ;)

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  25.  Yes, he needs to taste her.  Then maybe she will not be as apprehensive about it and it could totally change her perspective. Glad to see blogger is back working. It was the worse time to go down....right in the middle of tongue licking goodness !!

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  26. I never got this update. I bet most didn't get the alert.

    Gah. I vote yes and yes.

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  27.  LOL youe A/N cracks me up.

    I;m thinking maybe she's not upset? Maybe he misread her? (wouldn't be the first time) Or, if she is, maybe because she thinks he'd want her to reciprocate? 

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  28. I think that Bella's "training" probably focused completely on her learning to pleasure orally.  So I think she will let him.  Either she looked panicked because it was unexpected and this is new to her or she is afraid that he might expect/want her to reciprocate.   Of course I will not be surprised if I am wrong.  I do think that eventually, assuming you have figured out how to keep them together, that someday she will want to "do that again" when she can do it with love for her love.  But I also think that I was on the verge of withdrawal here while the blog was down; this story is definitely a personal addiction for me!

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  29. I don't think she's gonna say no lol.  I think she doesn't want to perfom oral again,
    I think she's never had it done to her so she's shy about it heehee. Thanks Savage
     

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  30.  I love your fic, you know that already, but I think I love even more your ramblings at the beggining and end of each chapter! LOL

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  31. I love this story!
    Wonderful chapter as always!! :)

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  32. I say again, he is so insecure, and so adorable because of it! 

    (And I am so glad I can read this story again!)  :-P

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  33. well you said you were going to prolong it out you sure told the truth,.. but you said you would summarize it if we complained so i am not complaining just stating fact.  yes she will let him!!! she better!!! 

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  34.  She will agree, she will say yes. She wants to make him happy, doesn't she?

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  35. I'll volunteer (ya know, take one for the team) to hold his pole for her.  ;)

     Well, I think him giving her pleasure with oral COULD be a good thing for her.  Once he does it for her she'll understand why he liked having it done so much and that his complete willingness to never feel it again is a sign of how much he cares about her and regrets what was done to her for him.  Besides, it's a way for him to make it up to her (yeah not really since there isn't anyway, but in a funny teeny tiny way it could be symbolic, eh?).   :)

    Okay shutting up now to go enjoy the next cliff hanger!  (*sings*  And that's why they call her Cliff Hanger!!")  ;D  Did you see that segment on PBS?  *mwha*

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  36. Finally!!!

    Oh, does she thinks he'll want her to reciprocate?

     

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  37. I think she is just inexperienced and shocked.......  the poll, pole was great  

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  38. i love your comments at the end, but uh, i just want more sex!
     

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  39. Oh Bella nod once for yes! I hope he kisses her all over and then some. I sure hope he is worried for nothing. I can' t help but think how romantic everything is too laying on the rose peddles. I hope he opens up to her about how he is feeling... how much she means to him.

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  40. "It was the brutal need to
    just be in her presence, not matter what we were doing.”, “...I was quite sure I
    could just live off of Bella...” – these are beautiful lines, expressing the way Edward feels, being in love for the first time.
    I love the moment, when Bella
    notices how nervous Edward is, asks him about it and helps him relax. She is
    really a caring person.


    I hope Bella's reaction at the end is not a flashback. She may be worried that it will be repulsive for him the way it has been for
    her.


     

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  41. oh edward! you done scared the poor thing! 

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  42.  She better if she knows what's good for her --hehe, yeah

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  43. think it's just nerves. poor e. tried to read chapter 79 on the blog but think something is wrong with it

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  44. The more this drags out, the more I think they'll be interupted.  

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  45. Yeah Savage...you should definitely just shut up and let him do it... her...
    us..... whatever... LOL!


    It's such fun to see this piece of insensitive, arrogant mobster turned into
    such a loving man and considerate lover, that realizing he has to go all the
    way makes him nervous, no doubt for the first time in his life.


    I also loved the parallel to cannon, when just like cannon Edward, he
    thought Bella was putting her trust in the wrong place. But the girl has found
    his hidden love treasure...she knows better!

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  46.  i was quite sure I cud just live off Bella- oxygen could become secondary.......how sweeeeeeeeeeeet is dat tho!?!?!? hahahaaaaaa, dese chapters get way more EPIC
    i tink Bella is panicked/worried becuz she doesnt want 2 do that again an she wud feel compelled or rather pressured if i cud say that to b fair in returnin the pleasure, as she did sum chapters aback........I kno Eddie doesnt want her 2 do anyting she doesnt but she doesnt quite understan that.

    Yesssssss, i love where dis is goin.....let him do u Bells!!!!!!! I mean for sake of us, the readers. Tink about it, its no longer only ur pleasure rides at stake here. We're all in arousal too.....*mayb not in the same exact way as u are but we are ok* Waz dat statement evn true?!?!? i doubt.....hahahaaaaaaaaaaa

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  47. Edward is so head over heels in love with Bella. Gosh, this is just great. 

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  48. *Ding* Next chapter.

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  49. I love your AN they make me LOL... a lot!! Great chapter... She would be fookin insane not to let him!!

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  50. She'll let him. She needs to see how oral can be pleasurable and not the hell she was put through. Besides, she has a pass to never give head, she may as well take him up on it!

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  51. You kill me! Shall she.....
    Oh, I say she shall, should...

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  52. Never say never ... Right?

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  53. I never got this update. I bet most didn't get the alert.

    Gah. I vote yes and yes.

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  54. Let's hold bold poles! Eh fuck it he should definitely go down on her, especially since the wax job is fresh.

    Yay you're back I missed you :)

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