Sunday, May 1, 2011

CBWR? Chapter 66

Author’s notes:
Sorry I didn’t get one out yesterday.  Between soccer games there was…driving to another soccer game.  Hard to write and drive.  Here’s a early one, though!  I should have another out tonight.
Well…no shit.
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Chapter 66
The sweet taste of her mouth and the feeling of her fingers tangled in my hair were my sole points of focus.  Everything about the guy following us, the all day trip through multiple countries, and the subsequent paranoia over who Lee Stephens might really be was forgotten.  Bella was the only thing in my world.
 Again, I had to wonder why I had never really considered just kissing to be all that interesting.  I did it, since the women I had been with seemed to want it, but it was only the means to an end – not something to be enjoyed in its own right.
But with Bella, everything was different.
I sucked her bottom lip into my mouth, licking along its edge before releasing it and moving to her chin, down her throat, and to the little indentation at the bottom of her neck.  I kissed her there, licked her, and then moved over to her shoulder. 
Bella’s grip in my hair guided me back to her mouth, where I went happily. 
As I kissed her, I could feel her hands running up my arms, over my shoulders, down my back, and back around to my chest.  I loved the feeling of her hands on me.  Her touch was so soft and gentle, and I almost couldn’t feel it through my shirt.  I wanted to take the damn thing off, and immediately started second guessing myself on how good of an idea that was.
She wanted me.  I could feel it.  Other women had wanted to have sex with me because I was attractive or rich or whatever, but this didn’t feel the same. 
I wanted her.  Well…no shit.
I pulled away from her a bit and looked down at her.  Her hands roamed up my sides and over my face.  She pulled my face back down to hers, and I felt the edge of her teeth catch hold of my lip, which made me moan.
She giggled, tilted my head with her hands, and kissed up the side of my jaw.  Once she got to my ear, she made her way back down my neck, and kissed my Adam’s apple.
I opened my eyes and looked down to her, trying to figure out why she was so blurry.
“Edward?”  Bella’s eyes narrowed at me.  “Are you all right?”
I tried to answer, but my words became all garbled.  I rolled to my side and wrapped my arms around her to pull her to my chest.  She smelled good.
“Edward.”  Bella’s voice change a little.  She sounded like she was…scolding me?  “Did you sleep on the trains at all?”
“No,” I managed to mumble back.  Now that she had said the word sleep, I had a pretty good idea what was wrong with me.  It’s like it was a magic word, and just her utterance was enough to put me out.  “Had to…watch.”
“You look like you are going to pass out,” Bella said. 
I was going to argue with her, but my head had gone all fuzzy, along with my logic.  It was also getting harder to open my eyes, even though looking at her was definitely something I wanted to do.  Some little, still working part of my brain told me I hadn’t been to sleep in over forty eight hours, and then insisted I go find a Starbucks.  I wasn’t so sure that was a good idea.
I felt Bella’s hand on my face, slowly stroking the ends of her fingers from the top of my head, along my hairline, down over my jaw, and then back again.  She repeated te movement, and I could feel myself smile a little.
“That feels good,” I told her.  My speech was all garbled, and I wondered if she could even understand what I was saying. 
“Go to sleep, Edward,” Bella whispered back to me.  I felt her lips against my forehead, and then her hand was gone.
“Don’t stop,” I frowned.  I managed to open my eyes just a crack, but then they closed again.
“Don’t stop what?” Bella asked.
It was harder to speak coherently than it was to move, so my hand grabbed for her hand and placed it against my face again.  I rolled against her, tucking my head into the space between her neck and shoulder.  I heard Bella laugh quietly, but her fingers began to stroke my face again, so I was happy.
It was okay to be happy for a minute, right?
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Chapter end notes:
Awww…isn’t that cute? 
I’m a total fail on this banner below.  It’s one of my favs, and I can’t seem to remember/find who made it!  Please tell me if you know, so I can get the artist credit!
I know, they still aren't getting any.  Remember - these chapters are short!  They still got a little while.  If they don't do it until chapter 84, we're still only talking about...what?  Thursday?  LOL


Also, if you have seen any rec’s for CBWR, let me know as well.  Fourchette is trying to get me all organized, and the more help you can give her, the less likely she is to get sick of my shit and abandon me! :)  She has done a FABULOUS job making the blog look good!  There's no way I would ever get any of it right!!

60 comments:

  1. Yes, Edward, I think it's OK to be happy for a minute, but only because it is Bella that's offering the happiness, and only because she is offering it willingly.

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  2. Wow talk about slow burn!! Chapter 84?

    I love this Edward!

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  3. Hitchy *crazy for THG*May 1, 2011 at 5:45 AM

    Whoo, your blog is getting faaaancy. Nice. ;-)

    Oh Edward. He's like a foul mouthed, hot-bodied, gun-toting little boy isn't he sometimes?

    This chapter was cute. Never thought I'd say that about a chapter of anything written by you, but cute was the word for me this time. And it was great.

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  4. Ust is awesome. I love this. ~ shelgibson

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  5. Poor boy, doesn't even know what his own boy tells him, focused as he is on Bella.

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  6. Chapter 84? WTF? Poor guy... Either his morals (yeah,amazing but he really has them where Bella's concerned), or lack of sleep, or being on the run. Something is always getting in the way!

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  7. You certainly know how to make us groan. It will happen soon, right?

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  8. The blog looks great! Kudos to Fourchette!

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  9. Loved it and If they don't do anything I will still love it I like that there taking the time to get to know each other and I hope She doesn't let him give up on her and walk away I see her stronger than that Thanks for sharing this with us....

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  10. The banner maker was soapymayhem

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  11. Edward is slowly coming to the realization that he my be a worthwhile person after all. This is fiction so it is completely ok for me to accept that Bella could eventually forgive Edward for his part in her abduction. Right??

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  12. I so addicted to this fic!! I was all excited and like you said the chapters are so short I did not expect him to pass out from exhaustion! LOL Stupid me…. anyway I think its wonderful that Bella is bringing out a side of Edward that he never realized he was missing.

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  13. Sweet, sweet chapter. Who'da thunk that Doofus could be so caring and thoughtful about anyone, let alone a woman, that he would do all he could to stay up 48 hours straight to protect her. He is becomming the man he needs to be and I can't wait to see the final transformation. I don't even mind the wait for "it" to happen because there are so many new revelations as to his hidden character with each new chapter.

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  14. I so addicted to this fic!! I was all excited and like you said the chapters are so short I did not expect him to pass out from exhaustion! LOL Stupid me…. anyway I think its wonderful that Bella is bringing out a side of Edward that he never realized he was missing.

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  15. I so addicted to this fic!! I was all excited and like you said the chapters are so short I did not expect him to pass out from exhaustion! LOL Stupid me…. anyway I think its wonderful that Bella is bringing out a side of Edward that he never realized he was missing.

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  16. I definitely like Doofus best when he is sleep deprived. He was so sweet and attentive in this chapter.

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  17. Bella wants to experience intimacy, but I am afraid how this will be for her. She is severely traumatized and her attitude to Edward is most probably very controversial - - a savior, a victim of neglect, a person, who cares for her, an attractive man, a very flawed person, who caused her torment, an arms dealer, a murderer. I wonder if she will be able to deal with physical intimacy after the abuse and how she will reconcile this controversy. This is very complicated and that's why it is such an interesting story.

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  18. I'm happy that they haven't done anything yet, I don't think either of them are ready for the emotional consequences. Or completely sure of what they want.

    I can't get enough of this story.
    Awesome blog.

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  19. Aw that was sweet. Poor Edward got a bit of happiness. :) I'm grinning like an idiot right now. But as always, his thoughts are underlined with sadness. He thinks one can only want him for his money or power, he doesn't think he's worth liking or loving or even wanting :(

    It's Bella's birthday in three days, right? I hope he makes it special for her.

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  20. Bless his heart... I hope it either happens soon... or she goes home and they reunite at a later date... As much as I love your lemons, I almost want the later... just because I don't think she is any kind of emotional state to have sex with her ex-master/dude she is in love with... just gets kinda jumbled... as always... love your words...

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  21. wow .. awesome chapter .. Edward's the cutest thing .. he's so sweet and i feel really sorry for him .. he needs and craves affection and it's heartbreaking .. i can't help think about him as a little kid who never got a hug from his mother .. it's breaking my heart .. Bella is so good to him .. she's so good for him .. she gets him and gets what he needs and i love that .. sigh
    im loving watching those two .. i love how they need each other and crave each other and make each other whole through this beyond fucked up situation :)

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  22. Love the story. love the blog ;)

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  23. Over two days w/o sleep? Fuck, Doofy! Take a breather.

    Loved the end Savage. First time he asked for something for himself since he started trying to make amends.

    Don't worry about the no sex thing. Your pacing on that feels natural to me.

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  24. I love it. Edward will most likely be ready to go once he has some sleep but then something will happen so it won't happen.

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  25. Thank for the update.

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  26. Great chapter, as always lol. Poor Edward, can't get a break. I keep imagining every intimate touch being so foreign to him. It doesn't sound like the girlfriends he dated were much more than sex for him, and for just a kiss to mean so much is really telling. Can't wait to see what happens after a nap. thanks Savage

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  27. Sweet! Edward needs someone to take care of him right now. He is exhausted. It's his turn. Hope nothing happens while he is sleeping!

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  28. melissaringuetteMay 1, 2011 at 11:57 AM

    love it!!! after all is said and done, you should do some sort of outtake from BPOV... i`d love to know what is going through that pretty little head of hers...

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  29. Great job Fourchette has done with the blog. Yall are doing awesome.... thanks muchly for the update. Sleepy doofus is cute.... guess since the chapters are short, when they do get some it will be 'quickies?'.. (couldn't resist).... Pam B.

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  30. Thanks for letting us know!!!

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  31. That was sweet. :-) I don't mind having to wait a little longer—a boy needs his sleep, and he's earned it, watching over her for so long.

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  32. very sweet. think e has been simply missing physical contact that is caring . . . so sad for him, but at least b is giving him something that is starting to mend him and fill his soul

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  33. i love the fact that he is finally letting her comfort him.........keep up the good work doofy :)

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  34. He needs to sleep, he has to sleep. Once he is rested, things will be much much better. Also, this is part of what he has been missing, cuddling, sharing space... Our guy is growing up!!!! Who would have imagined!!!!

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  35. It worried me when his speech got all garbled, but he is just tired. It seemed to worry Bella too. I liked hearing her giggle when he moaned and when he snuggled up and put her hand on his face. I especially loved that he could feel that what was happening between them was different than anything he has felt before and that it is different for Bella too. I want them to be okay so badly... that worries me.

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  36. This was a sweet chapter. Edward cuddled up to Bella as opposed to Bella cuddling up to Edward. It's a nice change of pace.

    Stephanie

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  37. So sweet. I like these two just spending some time holding one another.

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  38. Wow, they are both changing so much. He is getting softer and more emo, and she is getting stronger, but loving. I love this time between them. It's sweet, but guiding where they are going to go together......or not?

    I have said this before, but if Edward has so much money, why can't he just get out of the arms and killing business??? He's going to have to, I think, if he wants Bella to stay with him.

    I'm SO HAPPY you write this daily....it's just AWESOME!

    thanks, Shay, bb....
    xoSus

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  39. fLove the banner!! For a second, I thought E was crying from the tender moment. lol Loved it too, and his trust of her to be soothed to unconsciousness by her touch and forget the danger. Bet it's difficult to let those instincts go.

    Thanks!!

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  40. Okay so I accidently read chapter 67 before 66.... darn I hate when I do that :P Edward is just so adorable I could eat him alive :)

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  41. :) he was so close! so damn close!

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  42. This chapter was both sweet and funny. It was sweet, because Bella's touch seems to bring to life the dormant sensibility and tenderness of this Edward, and funny because, just when they were so close, he went to sleep...

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  43. I did that too! :(

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  44. A mannnnn soooo close! Cocked blocked by the Zzzzz's :/ lol.

    Well, still got my dose of sweet Doofy. :)

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  45. Edwards EternalMay 2, 2011 at 7:39 PM

    Oh he is happy - an emotion I doubt he has experienced in many years...
    Will he be able to accpet being happy or is he just gonna cock it all up ???

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  46. You are asking to be told about reviews of Could be worse, right? On Raum's blog
    My reading lounge, apart from the discussion of you writing techniques , there is a comment on the story written by me. I start discussing the scrapping from ff net, but obviously I also address your content.
    http://myreadinglounge.blogspot.com/2011/04/writing-lab-lesson-from-savage-on.html#comments

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  47. You're banner maker is @SoapyMayhem and her posting it on TwiFicPics is the reason I'm reading this.

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  48. Awww...this will be one of my favorite chapters :)

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  49. I really loved this chapter! It really shows how Edward is growing and it's exactly the physical pace Bella can handle. In fact, she's the one progressing it and she seems to know just what he needs.


    It makes complete sense that Edward is just completely exhuasted, but could he have been slipped something?

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  50. sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo yes, this is one of ma faves definitely!!!!!!!! U cud def b happy 4 a minute Eddie......u deserve it!!!! he does right?!?!? He's makin progress n yes it does make sense that he's exhausted. I stil need 2 see Bella finally "TAKE CARE OF HIM" as she promised 2 do so many chapts ago.........

    Gosh, it kills me 2 go 2 bed now but its ridicuously 3:30am here!!!!! mayb one more chapter!!!!! I jus kno i'll be sayin dat for 3 more chapters on end.....hahahaaaaaGR8 WRK @Savage:twitter .........EDDIE HUNNI, SLEEP TIGHT, DONT LET KARMA BITE!!!!! i freakin love this story............Hope Eddie can finally accept that some happiness can come out of this, for them both!!!!!!!!! Hey, evrything happens for a reason right?!?!?

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  51. When Edward's vision blurred, I thought for sure he was crying. 

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  52. *Throws a pillow at wall* first the trailer now he passes out, its one damn thing after another. -.-

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  53. Jesus, they're just so sweet.. Doing "it" is worrisome.... Lemons are great, wonderful, yummy.. But love is just.. sigh.. LOL



    FanFicCrazy <-------- sap

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  54. I do love the lemons but you're right to take your time sdo that it is right!! Any lemons in this story are gonna be quite sensitive!! I can't wait! 

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  55. So perfect and trusting...they are loving each other and Edward has no way of defining it.

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  56. Chapter 84? WTF? Poor guy... Either his morals (yeah,amazing but he really has them where Bella's concerned), or lack of sleep, or being on the run. Something is always getting in the way!

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  57. Awe sleepy Edward is adorable!

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  58. He actually asked her to do something to comfort him. He admitted a need for closeness, rather than sex. Aw, he is becoming more human every day.

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