Wednesday, April 27, 2011

CBWR? Chapter 61

Author’s Notes:
Surprised/impressed about how many people identified Lee Stephens as the Biology kid who also passed out during blood typing.  I didn’t recall ever seeing him in a FF, so I thought he deserved his chance!
“I’m a fucking idiot, and I’m sorry.”

Chapter 61:
I watched Bella’s eyes as they slowly dropped to the ground.  I could see by how red they were, and I knew she had been crying, but I had to push that out of my head for now.  Her posture changed immediately as she spoke.
“I’m sorry…sir,” she said.  I did a little mental happy dance that she was on the same page as me.  She glanced up at Lee and then back at the ground again.  “I didn’t know there was a…a guest.”
“He’s not here to see you,” I said.  “Get back to bed.”
“Yes, sir,” she responded.  She turned and quickly went back inside, shutting the door behind her.
I looked back to Lee as I took another long drag, trying to gauge his reaction.  His eyes were still on the closed door, but when he looked back to me he smiled.
“Nice,” he said with a nod.
“She’s all right,” I shrugged.  I didn’t want his attention focused on her at all, so I made a quick subject change.  “Now let’s get on with this.”
We spent about a half hour talking about exactly what he wanted, what quantities, and what he might want in the future.  He certainly knew the talk, which made me think he was more likely to be a legitimate customer, but didn’t leave me completely trusting him or anything.  When everything was worked out, I walked him back to his car.
“Thanks for talking to me,” Lee said.  “And I’m really sorry if I…interrupted anything.  I didn’t really think you’d talk to me tonight.  Well, not at all, honestly.  I hoped you would, but I really didn’t mean to interrupt your…vacation.”
More nervous laughter.  Was this guy some kind of gangster fanboy?
“Don’t do it again,” I told him.  “You’re lucky I was in a good mood.”
“Yeah…um…well, thanks again.”  He held his hand out, and I just looked from the outstretched fingers back to his face, raising an eyebrow a bit.  He dropped it, nodded, and got into the car.  I watched him maneuver back down the gravel driveway before heading back inside.
I took my jacket off, but brought the gun into the bedroom.  Bella was sitting on the bed with her knees tucked up to her chest, and her arms wrapped around them.  I stopped in my tracks, not knowing what I should do.  I wanted to go to her – try to do something to make her feel better, but I also knew I was the one who upset her.  She may not have wanted anything to do with me.
There was also little time for such things, because we needed to get the hell out of here.  Legit or not, Lee Stephens was a risk, and I wasn’t going to take any risks when it came to Bella.  We needed to leave Germany as soon as possible.  Tonight.  Now.
“Who was he?”
I looked away and shook my head.
“Doesn’t matter,” I told her.  “Just some idiot looking to get his head blown off if he isn’t more careful.  He’s worked with Aro before, though.  I didn’t want him to get…suspicious.”
“I figured.”  Her tone was sharp and blunt.
“I’m sorry,” I said as I reflexively tried to run my hand through my hair, hitting myself in the forehead with the H&K in the process.  I grimaced, and Bella started laughing.  I looked up and her and smiled a little, because it was good to hear her laugh.  It only lasted a few second though, when her laughter turned back into tears.  She wiped them away quickly, and I just stood there, not having any idea what I should do.
“I’m not playing that game again, Edward,” Bella suddenly said.
I grimaced again, and then nodded.
“I didn’t know what else to do,” I tried to explain, but knew it was pointless. 
Bella put her forehead down on her knees, and I continued to stand there like the idiot I was.  I had no idea if I should just leave her in peace, which might very well be what she would prefer, especially since she had already slammed the door once, or if I could try to offer her some kind of comfort.  I wanted to do the latter, but I didn’t know if I should even go near her.
She looked back up at me, and she looked as lost and scared as she had the first night – right after her first nightmare.  The night she looked at me in horror after she realized it wasn’t just a dream.  The acid reflux came back with a vengeance, and I started to wonder if that’s really what is was.  The next thing I knew I was in the bed with her in my arms.
“I’m so fucking sorry,” I said softly as I held her against my chest.  “I didn’t want him to be suspicious…I didn’t know you were going to come out…I couldn’t think fast enough…”
I closed my eyes tight and breathed in the scent of her hair.
“I’m a fucking idiot, and I’m sorry.”
Bella’s arms went around my neck, and she held on to me tightly.  She didn’t say anything, and for the longest time I just held her, rocking back and forth a little bit.  She eventually stopped crying, and I felt her body relax against me as she sniffled.
“I’m so tired,” she whispered, and I took that as my cue to lay her down against the pillows.  I started off lying beside her, still holding her against me, but then I remembered how pissed she was.  I played a little mental tennis between stay or go, but when that stupid 80’s song started bopping around in my head in time to the tennis balls, I had to stop thinking and just ask her.
“Do you want me to leave?” I asked.
“No!” she yelled, and her grip on me tightened.  “Don’t leave.”
“I won’t,” I promised.  I shifted to my side and wrapped one arm around her shoulders and the other around her waist, holding her as close to me as I could.  “I’ll be right here.  I’m not going anywhere.”
I would be, too.  As long as she’d let me, I would be right here beside her.   No matter what else happened, I wouldn’t leave her unless she told me to.
At least I had a purpose, right?

Chapter End Notes:
*Singing* Should I stay or should I go now?  If I go there will be trouble!  If I stay it will be double!
Yeah – no winning here, huh?
I probably won’t have another update tonight – too much else going on.  See you all again tomorrow!

84 comments:

  1. you just rock my world...
    xo
    @tw1lightdelight

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  2. thank you .... I was furious, amused, stunned, scared and recently sad and teary with this story

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  3. love it!! as usual... THANK YOU!! i just wanted to ask.. how long do you think CBWR? is going to be?? and i didnt dare to try and guess who this Lee Stephens was because i really didnt have any idea who could he be.. shame on me.. bad fan.. bad bad fan.. now i seriously thinking on reading the series again..

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  4. Oh man now I am goign to have that song stuck in my head!!!!!!!!!

    Aww Edward is really falling hard it's cute. I thought they were going to leave? I wonder where they will go?

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  5. Love it thank you for the update. I wonder if the Lee guy is legit. I hope so. I think Edward is learning - just ask Bella what she wants!!!

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  6. I don't know about this visitor. Isn't good old Eddie worried about whther or not this chump will open his big mouth and tip people off to their location?

    "Darling you got to let me kno-oooow,
    Should I stay or should I go."

    :-)

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  7. "if you say that you are mine"

    another great chapter they so need to take to each other. psss Edward bella birthday real should buy her a gift you know she is you wife after all, that want you do. :) just let you know as dont think you even be give a gift, never mind give someone one from weekitty

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  8. He's right, he has a purpose by her side. But right now he has to swing his ass out of bed, pack their things, wrap her in a blanket & carry her sleeping body to the car, and get the hell out of Dodge. Hurry Edward.

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  9. Loved this one—it was really sweet after he apologized and they held each other. Still, I'm with IkeaGoddess—what happened to "We needed to leave Germany as soon as possible. Tonight. Now."? Better get movin', boy!

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  10. I totally agree. There is no point to have been that careful and deadly if they don't scarper, now to a safest place. Real safe, please, they are getting there at last, cut them some slack.

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  11. Gah... You own me. ~ shelgibson

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  12. I agree!That's just what I was going to say about getting the hell out of Dodge. Something just didn't ring true about him finding them so easily. I miss the two ande three updates, for sure, but at least the chapters are a bit longer now. You know you drive us insane with this story, right?

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  13. Best story I've read in awhile....I am so hooked.
    Thanks
    Carol

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  14. Sometimes it really does seem like there is no winning for Edward. But then he does something really right like holding her, soothing her, apologizing. And then I have hope that he can really figure things out. But right now I am hoping he does not get too comfy and wait too long to get out of Germany! Loved the chapter!

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  15. First thanks.... I can't get the song out of my head lol.

    They need to get the hell out of dodge. Edward should have gone with his first instinct and blown his head off.

    Edward has fallen hard whether he realizes it or not. I liked the some what tender moment they shared at the end.

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  16. That song is going to be tormenting me for the rest of the night...Thank you.

    Where are they going to go now?

    My paranoia was taking over and I was imagining Lee to really be like an undercover agent and was seeing if Bella was with him...

    I need to quit trying to guess plot lines and just read the damn story!!!

    Thanks Lady Savage!

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  17. well thank for the non cliffy for once LOL I felt a pang when he said how fucking sorry he was Doofus doesn't strike me as the I'm Sorry type :P

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  18. I thought they were going to leave. Tonight.

    Get the fuck out of bed and get going, Doofuss.

    Jeesh. One little song and he gets sidetracked.

    Lee Stephens A/K/A Who the fuck knows? will be back with frenemies.

    xx

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  19. You have made me very happy with this update.
    Thanks.

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  20. I'm so glad that he has realized how he feels for her. And the fact that he says he'll never leave is sweet.
    He needs to get his butt in gear if he thinks he's going to leave before Lee comes back.
    Thanks for sharing.

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  21. I don't know what I would do if I don't get updates on this. You rock :D!!!
    I don't want to see anyone else in story except Bella and Doofus in their world, Maybe they should move to an island for few months ;)

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  22. He's so dense he can't realize he's in love with her. Doofus is more than appropriate for him.

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  23. Men would do a lot better if they would just ask us what we want and then do what we say huh? Edward is learning! LOL! He is staring to realize I think that he cares fir Bella! this Lee guy is trouble! Big trouble I think! Looking forward to the next! Thank you for he update! Have a good night!

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  24. I want them cuddled up but for garsh sakes get up & get mooving already!
    I'm creeped out by that guy. No one but Alice & Rose & their counterparts should know where they are. Right?
    Yeah, thanks for the update;D

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  25. Lord, I hope they get their arses into gear and make a speedy departure before that very suspect guy comes back; I wouldn't trust him as far as I could pee up a wall!

    Oh, and meant to say in my review of Ch.60 that as I haven't re-read any of the Twilight books since I discovered fanfiction a couple of years ago, I had more chance of remembering all my infants school classmates than of recalling such an obscure character - kudos to you for giving him his moment in the ff sun!

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  26. Hey they need to go..and now! I don't like this Lee he seemed too nervous! RUN

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  27. Whew, so Lee was just some stupid asshole? That's it? Thank God! i definitely hope he won't show in the morning with bunch of gangsters or cops to take Edward down.

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  28. that was a close one! man i hope that guy is who he says he is and doesn't try anything funny. these two are stung up enough.

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  29. More nervous laughter. Was this guy some kind of gangster fanboy?

    Why can't more men be comfortable with saying this???

    “I’m a fucking idiot, and I’m sorry.”

    I am both surprised and not surprised that Bella played along. I doubt she will do it again.

    Can't wait to read what happens next!

    Keye

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  30. Edward made a choice and that was to protect Bella. He didn't want the guy wondering who she was. I'm glad she let him hold her. Thanks for another great chapter!

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  31. I luff it when they just hold each other. Makes me get the warm fuzzies. :)

    This Lee character makes me nervous.. almost as nervous as him.

    Yeh, think that's a good idea- They need to get a move on. Pronto.

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  32. you write the best stories .. love them all and love the quick updates

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  33. Nice chapter... as always ! When I come home after work and the kids are sleeping... your are my reward of the day !

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  34. boy still staying confused when it comes as to what to do/for Bella... thanks for the update.. Pam B..

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  35. I thought that was fast thinking on his part, even if it p'd her off more! He's still just so unsure of himself. He wants to do right by Bella, but just isn't sure how! I actually feel a little sorry for him.....

    Thanks for the update. Look forward to these each day!
    xoSus

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  36. You know it blows me away that you started this story one evening when you were frustrated writing U.C., getting it just right. So if I understand you right, you started this little tale on a whim... to have a little diversion from the main story you were writing. And now you have this fascinating, suspenceful, heartbraking, scarey, sad and maddening story at times when your update is so short and so good that it hurts and you leave us on the tip of a cliff that is so sharp like a needle teetering on falling off as we plead for another update, LOL, no matter how short because we have to know what is going to happen next. I love this story and I love this Bella and Edward has wormed his way into my heart and infact I have loved him all along as soon as I knew that he couldn't and wouldn't hurt her. You have created an intriguing tale that makes me think of MOTU as that story too pulled so many emotions from me but kept me dialed in and intrigued and dialated until the very end. This story does the same for me and you know could be over a 100 chapters too before the story is all told because there is just so much more that could happen and you are just the tallent who could do it.

    Anyway, just wanted to point out that you have something really masterful here that I am very much enjoying and am so glad you have drawn me in with your brand of story telling. Looking forward to every bit of this story you have for us yet to unfold.

    As for this chapter, I am so glad that Bella caught on to what he was doing and went along with it. I am also releaved that she wanted him to stay with her and felt comforted by Edward holding her. Loved it. So he realizes that he wants to stay with her...always. I wonder does Bella want the same thing? I hope he tells her that and that he would give up everything if it meant she would keep him. All in good time...I hope.

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  37. awe yay! you had it ready when i got home from work! you make me happy lady!

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  38. I have that song on my ipod!

    I'm glad Bella played along; still have a bad feeling about BioBoy. There's only room enough for one dipshit in this story and that role is firmly filled. So...he must be a plant. Doofy should have tailed him and iced him.

    Loved the interaction between the two of them in the bedroom. Although they need to get to steppin; and get the hell gone!

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  39. Now that I am up to date... stupid FF.net taking it off of their site.. anyways.. loved it,keep em coming!!!

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  40. Edward is gonna have a heartattack. Poor Bella is so confused that she is putting a tailspin on doofus. I feel for both of them. I so addicted to this story.
    Love it Savage!!

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  41. He needs to let her fall asleep and then pack up and put her in the car.

    Don't forget her puzzle and snowglobe Edward!!!

    Also, he should know to ask Lee if he was a cop. They supposedly can't trap you if you are a cop and they can't lie but I don't know how it works with German police or Interpol.

    How sad is it that we are all routing for a murderer, slave buyer and gun runner! That is how good you are Shay!!!

    Roshambo

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  42. Well, he can't go wrong giving the lady what she wants, can he? ;) I mean giving her what she wants and needs is making amends, right? lol

    Even if Lee is legit, he could blab. He's obviously not discrete and just the fact that someone blabbed to him is a warning that they are not secure if anyone is looking for them.

    It'd be worth another Scooby Snack if he'd figure out that him touching her is comforting to her. He could have two that deciding for her is what got her kidnapped, so he should defer to her judgment. :D

    Wonder where they're off to next! And hope that sleeping on it isn't perilous for them.

    Thanks!!

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  43. Two things:

    1. I'm shocked that no one else (so far) has mentioned the gun smack in the forehead! CLASSIC doofus moment right there!

    2. I don't think we've seen the last of Lee or whomever he's fronting. I don't have a good feeling about that AT ALL. Doof better get 'em out of Dodge or it'll bite him in the ass!

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  44. Maybe Lee is a Private Investigator working for her dad?

    Loved the gun smack too but he really should get out of there ASAP!

    xx

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  45. Lee is very suspicious and Edward takes a great risk letting him go. They felt quite safe in Germany, but now they know that it is not safe at all. They are still on the run and don't know who is after them. It is a very interesting idea to find a Twilight character, who hasn't been used in ff and who is neither positive or negative in the book. This way we have no idea what to expect from him and there is a great suspense. My guess is that Lee is one of the good guys, looing for Bella because of the great risk he took coming unannounced to Germany.

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  46. I love it as always. I wonder what will happen next.

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  47. I don't if i should applaud you for yet another amazing chapter or yell at you for making me addicted to this story. I love it please,please do not stop spreading your love to us..

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  48. Really liked "Should I Stay or Should I go"...

    He's slowly making progress and doesn't seem so clueless when he must be there for her...but they should really get moving...

    EnamoredHeart

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  49. Yeah, you did something right, Edward. But now? You need to both get in the car and get the hell out of dodge...

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  50. more....please..heheh couldn't get enough.

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  51. Whew! Finally all caught up. It took me awhile to find you; between premieres and reshoots I got a little distracted.
    I can't believe FFF(feckin'fanfiction)did that to you! Have you found out why? I like it better here anyway-it seems like you have more freedom.
    Poor Doofusward. Doesn't seem like any way out. My heart always goes out to these broken guys, I want to fix them. Is yhat bad?
    Hope RL is getting better for you. RL is like Doofusward-all effed up.
    Looking forward to the next installment of "As the Doofus Turns".

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  52. yayyyyyy finally all caught up!! the frickin easter break really did a number on me after not getting the updates for this and finding that ff had removed it!! TAFUGS!! lol!! anyways i love when these two cuddle together!! i really do hope she did get why he did what he did!! jeez was that sentence confusing?!!lol! can't wait for the next update!!

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  53. Wow, there may be hope for him yet. He might do better to let his heart lead, his head is a little crowded. lol thanks Savage great chapte.r

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  54. Man- When are we getting a new chapter? No update today? Geez. If peeps would leave you alone and let you write rather than asking inane questions about Blog appearance, that is.

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  55. okay i am addicted!!! all caught up in one day. even read through half of the work day today.. okay not good especially with all the crap i have to do. no reading tomorrow!! i can't wait for more!!!

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  56. HEY HEY HEY

    the Clash isn't some dumb 80s band and neither was that song! i don't know how old you are, but the Clash were anything but dumb. hehe. God, they were the best. i actually met them a few times when my boyfriend's band opened for them. those were the days.

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  57. HEY HEY HEY

    the Clash isn't some dumb 80s band and neither was that song! i don't know how old you are, but the Clash were anything but dumb. hehe. God, they were the best. i actually met them a few times when my boyfriend's band opened for them. those were the days.

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  58. more....please..heheh couldn't get enough.

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  59. I don't if i should applaud you for yet another amazing chapter or yell at you for making me addicted to this story. I love it please,please do not stop spreading your love to us..

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  60. Edward is gonna have a heartattack. Poor Bella is so confused that she is putting a tailspin on doofus. I feel for both of them. I so addicted to this story.
    Love it Savage!!

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  61. Now that I am up to date... stupid FF.net taking it off of their site.. anyways.. loved it,keep em coming!!!

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  62. You know it blows me away that you started this story one evening when you were frustrated writing U.C., getting it just right. So if I understand you right, you started this little tale on a whim... to have a little diversion from the main story you were writing. And now you have this fascinating, suspenceful, heartbraking, scarey, sad and maddening story at times when your update is so short and so good that it hurts and you leave us on the tip of a cliff that is so sharp like a needle teetering on falling off as we plead for another update, LOL, no matter how short because we have to know what is going to happen next. I love this story and I love this Bella and Edward has wormed his way into my heart and infact I have loved him all along as soon as I knew that he couldn't and wouldn't hurt her. You have created an intriguing tale that makes me think of MOTU as that story too pulled so many emotions from me but kept me dialed in and intrigued and dialated until the very end. This story does the same for me and you know could be over a 100 chapters too before the story is all told because there is just so much more that could happen and you are just the tallent who could do it.

    Anyway, just wanted to point out that you have something really masterful here that I am very much enjoying and am so glad you have drawn me in with your brand of story telling. Looking forward to every bit of this story you have for us yet to unfold.

    As for this chapter, I am so glad that Bella caught on to what he was doing and went along with it. I am also releaved that she wanted him to stay with her and felt comforted by Edward holding her. Loved it. So he realizes that he wants to stay with her...always. I wonder does Bella want the same thing? I hope he tells her that and that he would give up everything if it meant she would keep him. All in good time...I hope.

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  63. Nice chapter... as always ! When I come home after work and the kids are sleeping... your are my reward of the day !

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  64. Edward made a choice and that was to protect Bella. He didn't want the guy wondering who she was. I'm glad she let him hold her. Thanks for another great chapter!

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  65. Hey they need to go..and now! I don't like this Lee he seemed too nervous! RUN

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  66. I don't know what I would do if I don't get updates on this. You rock :D!!!
    I don't want to see anyone else in story except Bella and Doofus in their world, Maybe they should move to an island for few months ;)

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  67. That song is going to be tormenting me for the rest of the night...Thank you.

    Where are they going to go now?

    My paranoia was taking over and I was imagining Lee to really be like an undercover agent and was seeing if Bella was with him...

    I need to quit trying to guess plot lines and just read the damn story!!!

    Thanks Lady Savage!

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  68. I agree!That's just what I was going to say about getting the hell out of Dodge. Something just didn't ring true about him finding them so easily. I miss the two ande three updates, for sure, but at least the chapters are a bit longer now. You know you drive us insane with this story, right?

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  69. I totally agree. There is no point to have been that careful and deadly if they don't scarper, now to a safest place. Real safe, please, they are getting there at last, cut them some slack.

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  70. love it!! as usual... THANK YOU!! i just wanted to ask.. how long do you think CBWR? is going to be?? and i didnt dare to try and guess who this Lee Stephens was because i really didnt have any idea who could he be.. shame on me.. bad fan.. bad bad fan.. now i seriously thinking on reading the series again..

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  71. you just rock my world...
    xo
    @tw1lightdelight

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  72. They need to get out of there now!!! I knew Bella would figure it out quickly. Is it possible Lee is who he says he is. I think he could be, but someone else is using him to track Edward down. In any case, they need to get out of there. That house is no longer safe.

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  73. wondering why e is sitting on his ass. he himself said they needed to get out of there now, and then he decides to take a nap?

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  74. sum1 sent that bastard to find out wat type of material Eddie has access to.....wonda if its that?!?!? Hmpppppph, i'm nt likin dat Lee Stephens guy ,if dats evn his real name. But thnk God it wasnt Charlie, cuz i def wasnt prepared for that, an i doubt highly dat Eddie was either!!!!!!

    An ummmm Eddie......WTF!?!?!?!? u guys gotta MOVEEEEEEE. Y'all cud stil b together while gettin outta dere. Geeeeeeeeeeeez, i HATE BEIN SO ON EDGEEEEE, i blame u savage7289 ........hahaaaaaa, jk of course!!!!! OR am I?!?!?

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  75. How sweet of Edward trying to make it all better :)...but that guy showing up was not just a random thing. Someone sent him there...they need to go now!
     

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  76. I'm glad Edward is now finally attempting to help Bella when she's upset 

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  77. Good thing Bella caught on fast or they could both be in a lot of trouble. All Edward seems to do anymore is apologize...and so he should -.-

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  78. Damn! I knew I knew the name but couldn't think! LOL I thought they would pack up and leave.. :( Hope Lee or someone doesn't come back.. Seems fishy..

    Yeah, he's damned if he does and damned if he doesn't.. LOL

    FanFicCrazy

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  79. Whole situation seems a bit fishy!!!

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  80. aw Eddie has the Clash running through his head...........and I think he is kind of in a damned if you do damned if you don't situation

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  81. The bond is growing deeper and finding its foundation.

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  82. Now ihave that song in my head...

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  83. I'm still suspicious of Lee. I'd be calling the crew and hightailing out  of there pronto.

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