Thursday, April 28, 2011

CBWR? Chapter 62

Author's Notes:
Really late, but still techinically today!  And it's a long one. Hope that makes up for it.
“Why…how can you…want this?”
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Chapter 62:
The muscles in my arms tightened, bringing her closer to my chest.  I listened to her sigh, and felt her warm breath against my skin.  I kept my eyes closed, just holding her until she decided she didn’t need me anymore.  She wouldn’t need me – not much longer, anyway.  Another ten days and we would likely be able to return to the States.  I would be able to take her home.
No, I wouldn’t.
I would have to have someone else take her home.  How would Daddy Cop react if he saw me bringing his long-lost daughter home to him?  I had a pretty good idea, and only really wondered if he’d shoot off my balls first or go straight for the kill.
Bella’s head moved, and I opened my eyes to find her looking at me.  My chest tightened up again, and I had to force myself to swallow, though it still felt like there was something lodged in my throat.  Her eyes were still red, but her tears had dried on her cheeks, making strands of her hair stick to her skin.  I reached up and pushed the stray hairs from her face, tucking them behind her ear and out of the way.
Bella glanced down, and her tongue popped out and licked her lower lip.  This served to remind me exactly how her lower lip had tasted, and how it felt when her tongue was in my mouth.
I swallowed hard again.
Her hand came from around my neck and rested against my jaw.  Her fingers rubbed against the rough stubble on my cheek, reminding me how badly I needed to shave.  Her touch was also reminding me about earlier in the evening, what she had wanted, and what she had said when I refused her.
Her eyes were on mine, and I felt the gentle pressure of her hand on my face, pulling me closer to her.  As much as I knew it was the wrong thing to do, I moved with her touch until my lips were against hers, slowly kissing her wile I held her close to me.  I tilted my head slightly trying to get closer…to taste more of her.  I wanted more of her…all of her…anything she would be willing to give me.
My breathing was coming far too fast, and I was overwhelmed.  I didn’t understand anything I was feeling, and thoughts just weren’t all that forthcoming.   Whatever thoughts I did have just conflicted with what I was feeling.  The vast majority of me just wanted to lay back and do whatever she wanted, because my whole body was just drawn closer to her the more we touched – the more we kissed.  I had never really spent time kissing a woman before – it was only a prelude to getting off.  But this…this I could do all night.
I still didn’t understand her reasoning, and as much as that part of me wanted to just say “fuck it” and go with whatever the hell was happening here, there was the other, albeit smaller part that wanted answers.  Needed answers.  As much as it was physically painful to do so, I pulled back from her, kissing her lips softly just a couple more times before I looked into her eyes.
“Why?” I asked softly, just trying to make some kind of sense out of any of this, and figuring it was a hopeless task.  I knew why I wanted her – it was far too obvious – but I didn’t understand why she wanted me.   Not at all.
“Why what?”
“Why…how can you…want this?”
The backs of her fingers brushed my cheekbone.  She brought her mouth back to touch me briefly, gently running her lips over mine.  I let my hand glide down her side until it rested on her hip.
“Because I can see the man inside of you,” she whispered back.  “He’s not what he tries to show everyone else.  He’s not even what he thinks he is.  He wasn’t trying to do anything…evil.”
Even as I kissed her again, I didn’t believe her.
“That doesn’t make any sense,” I said with my lips still against hers.  “I can’t make up for what I’ve done to you.”
“But you have tried,” she responded.  Her fingers twisted into my hair and she pulled me hard against her mouth.  I felt her tongue on my lips, and I welcomed it…craved it…longed for it.
I would never be able to refuse her again.  It just wouldn’t be possible.
“I know what you really wanted,” she told me.
I felt that lump in my throat again.
“I wanted sex.”
“No, you didn’t, Edward,” she corrected me.  “That’s not what you wanted at all.”
“It isn’t?”
She slowly shook her head from one side to the other.
“You wanted someone to stay with you,” she said.  “You wanted someone you could trust – who you knew wouldn’t leave.  That’s not a bad thing to want, Edward.  You just didn’t know how to find that without doing something stupid.”
I couldn’t argue with the last part, but I narrowed my eyes a little.  This was not something I wanted to think about, not even inside of my own head.   Yeah, I was tired of girlfriends getting sick of me and bailing, but that wasn’t why I did this.  I just…I just didn’t want to…to…I wanted sex, and I didn’t want to have to…to…
Fuck it.  I had no fucking idea anymore. 
Besides, we weren’t supposed to be talking about me here.  I didn’t want to think about my reasons for shit – I knew why I wanted her.  She was beautiful and soft, and she made me stop smoking for a while to get more Asian noodles.  When she smiled or laughed, it made me want to smile and laugh, too.  When she cried, I wanted to make her feel better.
But I was responsible for her tears, and I couldn’t reconcile that in my head with her gentle touches over my face and shoulders.
“I don’t understand,” I admitted.  I just couldn’t leave it alone – I needed…something.  Answers?  I didn’t really know.  Justification, maybe.  My hand stroked against her cheek, and I loved how soft she felt against my skin.  “How can you…want this?  With me…with anyone?  After everything that’s happened.  How?”
She was silent for a moment, looking down and away from me as she finally spoke, her voice trembling.
“I don’t want what…what we did before.  What they did to me.”
Her eyes flashed quickly back to me.
“I will never, ever do that again!”  Her voice was still quiet, but full of all the hate and venom I would have expected.  She took a deep, stuttering breath.  “I won’t do that again.”
I had no doubt what she meant.  Part of me wanted to ask her just how often – how many times she had been forced to perform orally until she got it “right,” but I really didn’t think I could handle the answer.  Actually, I was completely sure I couldn’t handle it.  Just thinking about it made me nauseous.
How did she even cope?
I took her face in both of my hands.
“I would never ask you to,” I told her.  “Never.”
She looked up at me and studied my face.  Maybe she was trying to decide if I meant it or not, and I could only hope she would believe me.  Finally, she nodded.
“Good.”  Her forehead dropped back to my chest, and I held her close again.
I held her again while my head spun in a complete circle a couple of dozen times.  I was so fucking confused, I would have been hard pressed to try to put my feet on the floor and not end up on the ceiling. 
“I won’t do that again,” Bella repeated with her head still tucked against me.  “But it’s not the same thing.  I don’t want that…I want something else.”
“I know,” I answered.  “But it still…doesn’t seem right.”
She should hate me, not want me.
“We’re married, aren’t we?” Bella suddenly asked.
“Yeah, I guess we are.”  I gave her one of my championship shrugs.  “Technically.”
“But we didn’t have a normal wedding night.”
“Not…really.”  How was I supposed to argue with that?  Straight from the chapel to the killing fields, then jump on a plane to go into hiding on another continent?  Happy wedding day to you!  Yeah, there were easily a dozen other marriages that happened just like that in the same week.  Not.
“Maybe it’s a girl thing,” Bella said with a slight smile.  “You get this idea in your head about what it will be like.  I guess life is never quite like your dreams.”
I knew what she meant.  I’d turned her dreams into nightmares.  Again, I wanted to take it all back, and again I was powerless to do so.  I could not change the past, and I couldn’t clear her mind of what she had suffered.
“What did you think it would be like?” I asked.
“What?”
“Your wedding night.”
“Oh.” Bella danced the tips of her fingers over my chest.  “Not being dragged across the Atlantic for a murder spree, and then spending hours in a train car, that’s for sure!”
I recoiled a bit, and then glanced back at her.  There were tears in her eyes for the hundredth time.  Like a total moron, I went and opened my mouth again.
“I’ll give you whatever kind you want.”
She looked to me as she wiped the back of her hand over her cheek.
“Whatever kind of what?” she asked.
“Wedding night,” I said.  “I know it’s a little belated, but I’ll give it to you.”
Her eyes widened and then narrowed in thought.  My heart was beating faster than I ever recalled it doing before, and I opened my mouth to take it all back – try to pass it off as some kind of bad joke – but that’s not what came out of my mouth at all.
“I’ll stay with you, if that’s what you want,” I told her.  “Or I can go sleep on the couch if you want to be alone.  Or I’ll…I’ll give you a real wedding night.”
“What does that mean?”
Even as the words were trying to leave my mouth, I knew they were going to be about as dumb as trying to spread peanut butter on Wonder bread with the flat end of one of those big-ass screwdrivers everyone always has in their garage, even though no one ever has any screws that are big enough to be screwed with that sized driver.  It would make a damn big mess, though – wouldn’t it?  Kind of like what usually comes out of my mouth.
“I’ll make love to you, if that’s what you want,” I said.
My throat tightened up, but self-strangulation was to come way too late.
Bella turned her head to look up at me again.  For the longest time she just stared, until I was starting to feel like that guy in the human zoo from Slaughter House Five.  I wondered if there was any way I could do a little time-jumping around and maybe take some of the shit I spewed back into my mouth.  It didn’t work in that book, though, so I guess I was screwed.
“Do you even know how to make love?” she asked.
I closed my eyes and paused while I tried to find a way to remain silent.  I had no idea how to answer her.  My skin started to feel too tight for my insides, and there was this weird pressure behind my eyes, and I didn’t know what to make of it.  Finally I opened them again, and just went with what was as close to truth as I could muster.
“I don’t know,” I told her.  “I’ve never tried.”
The backs of her fingers stroked my face again.
“So it would be a first for you, too?”  Her voice was so quiet I could hardly hear her.
“Yeah.”  My voice was nothing more than breath through my lips.
If she really wanted it, it was okay, right?
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Chapter End Notes:

Well, you've been right so far, right?  Err....right?

Maybe?

Is he really capable of understanding her perspective?  Would anyone in his position be capable of understanding?

73 comments:

  1. Bella was so perceptive. Loved it.

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  2. Intense...
    This is my favorite chapter so far.

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  3. Ya know, I think Edward might just be doing the right thing. Bella has figured him out, hasn't she? And...I think them making love, together, for the first time, is definitely a good thing. No matter what happens in the future, I think this will be okay.

    They are, after all, married! :)

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  4. I don't know if he is capable. I think be wants to make love to Bella but immune sure he know the difference between sex and making love. MMM. I don't think Bella just wants sex. He loves her I think but he just dosent know what to do about it or maybe dosent totally recognize it. It will be very interesting to see where is goes with this..... Karen

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  5. I loved this chapter. I want them to make love as husband and wife but I am still worried about Lee!

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  6. Poor doofus, a life time of no lip love for his lolly...the things we give up for love.

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  7. "lip love for his lolly"... so funny.. I've never heard that!

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  8. NOOKIE! savage i tweet about it, i talk about it here im obsessed with it and i live threw your chacters im hopeless and i need nookie and bloodshed.


    but i love this chapter regardless.

    someone send me to an E&B porno story so that i can enjoy a good plot again.

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  9. Fabulous chapter! I can't wait for more ;)

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  10. Oh geeze, pleasseeee let him give her a proper wedding night. Alright? Thanks. :)

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  11. He is so sweet and Bella understands him so well. I think he is very capable of making love to Bella. And its amazing how Bella know what he wanted.

    I waited for a new chapter whole day and this was absolutely amazing! Loved this chapter. My fav so far :D

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  12. Austenbrontemeyer said: :)

    No one is capable of knowing how she feels. No one. This is a heinous crime of violence which was perpetrated upon her without consent. She was powerless to stop it or change its outcome.

    The fact that she may want to try at all may well be the catharsis she needs to obliterate any connection in her mind between the act of violence and an empowering act of love between lovers shared and offered freely.

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  13. Doofy...it's all about intent and feeling. The act is pretty much the same as what you've done before sweetie but it's what you're feeling inside now and how much you care about Bella that makes all the difference.

    And I totally do not blame Bella for her feelings in regards to the oral.

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  14. WOW! This chapter is intense!
    Bella really wants it and Doofuward would give it to her right?
    I'm gonna re-read the whole story : )

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  15. she gets him and he understands here but not himself. Wedding night here the come.

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  16. Even as the words were trying to leave my mouth, I knew they were going to be about as dumb as trying to spread peanut butter on Wonder bread with the flat end of one of those big-ass screwdrivers everyone always has in their garage, even though no one ever has any screws that are big enough to be screwed with that sized driver. It would make a damn big mess, though – wouldn’t it? Kind of like what usually comes out of my mouth.---That some funny shit right there lol

    I totally think she is in love with him and him with her. I think sex is going to change everything.

    This was an awesome chapter because we get to hear what she is saying and we get to hear what he is thinking lol.

    This chapter was worth the wait!!

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  17. I think it will be a monumental first time for both. He has done so well to repel any feelings he has and although his banter in his head is hilarious, I find that it is his coping mechanism. No matter how hard he tries, Bella will change a lot of things in him.

    Loved this chp. One of my fav thus far.

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  18. Great chapter! We totally have one of those frikkin screwdrivers. haha.I have to say I think he can relate, that man never had a choice his whole childhood. He never knew living in a trailer with no food, toys or basic's was not normal. She knows.

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  19. Bella got him all figured out. He is really clueless but he is getting there...

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  20. Edward, please give Bella a proper wedding night, OK?

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  21. (Okay, my google account keeps giving me errors, so I'm trying an anonymous post instead. This is Sarah speaking... :P )

    Whoa whoa...wait. Are they gonna do this NOW? Don't get me wrong, I'm all for the nookie, but as I said last time, what happened to getting the hell out of there before Lee and the posse show up?!? Get out of bed and take this up again in a safer place, lovebirds!

    Sorry for that. :-P Actually, apart from that little gripe, this has been my favorite chapter so far. The kissing was very sexy and sweet, and I loved the fact that they're communicating (at least to an extent). Bella finally spelled out for him what she can tell he needs, and the reason he wanted to buy a slave in the first place. Chew that one over, Doofus. Take your time.

    I do think Doofus is capable of making love...to Bella. Only to Bella. It was just sex to him before, yes, but he was never in love before. And whether he knows it or not, he’s in love now. The tender way he holds her and kisses her and brushes the strand of hair away from her face...all of that proves to me that he can do this. I think they both need this—her to help deal with what has been done to her, and him because he’s never been loved in this way before. But not in this bed, not in this house...not in Germany!

    And LOL at that paragraph about peanut butter and wonderbread and a screwdriver! Ah Doofus...

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  22. I would be able to take her home.
    No, I wouldn’t.
    At least his subconscious is making sense and on the right page.
    He may get it right after all.;D
    Love this story<3

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  23. Aww. Love.

    Doofy is being so sweet.

    Some of his musings are too fucking cute. Doofy. Ever endearing.

    Now give the girl what she wants, man!

    Plz & ty. :)

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  24. I think he is capable with Bella. But I think just to be on the safe side, Bella should tell him how she envisioned her wedding night to be, what expectations she has. That way he can try to give her what she wants. This wedding night is going to put a lot of pressure on Edward, because if he screws this up it will never happen again and he knows that too. I bet in the end he will be the one crying. I wonder where he will take her for their wedding night? Because they really have to get out of there.
    Thank you Savage for this really long and interesting chapter.

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  25. A first for BOTH of them! *squeeeeee*

    let's see if he can make love...

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  26. I think a proper wedding night would be perfect. It would be good for both of them. And as for "lip love for his lolly" (lol by the way-never heard that one either), I think she will do it eventually. She just has to do it on her own, not be forced.
    Lovin' this story by the way!

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  27. It's about time he gave in. I know that they had to go through every thing to get to this point but I'm glad that they finally got there. I can't wait to see how it all turns out.

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  28. What a moving chapter...the most moving so far. He's confused because he's in love. That's why he said he would even make love to her if she wanted him to, and I'm sure he's never said that to another woman.

    And Bella knows he's in love and that he's been searching for someone he could love and who would love him back all along, but he didn't know that's what he was searching for until he actually fell for her and found love...

    I guess he can't understand her yet, and it will probably take some time until he'll be able to see that she wants him because she can see he's capable of love, namely of loving her, but I'm sure some day soon he will understand that.

    A beautiful chapter really, except for the part where what she was forced to do is remembered...

    EnamouredHeart@gmail.com

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  29. Wonderful chapter, Savage, I think it is lovely that he even thought to offer her a real wedding night. I can't wait to see what happens next!! *whispers* I do love Doofusward..

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  30. ughhhhhhh .. i didn't get an email for this .. i just checked :S
    ok .. awesome chapter .. i love where this is going .. im worried though for them
    i thought Edward was gonna leave .. he doesn't trust that guy .. neither do i .. im scared for them

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  31. OH my word I just love this story!!!!!! OHHH whats gonna happen when Bella has to return - she is so perceptive and i hope Edward can give himself the chance...... Cant wait for another update - im absolutely hooked!

    You own my ass with this story - truely hehe LOL

    xoxoxox

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  32. I think if he wants to give her a proper wedding night, he needs to take somewhere romantic first, like Paris maybe? Or Rome? Hell, anywhere but their hiding place. And spend the evening eating in a fancy restaurant, and dancing, and THEN make love to her (if she really wants it that is).

    And what the hell happened to "we need to get out of here right now"????

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  33. awwwww doofusward's finally getting the love he's never had :0

    anyway i LOVE this story, as well as all your others and i just wait for an update, it's kinda pathetic :(
    but i love ur writing style and the detailed characterisation of all your characters as well as your ability to build up and portray emotions so well, you draw the reader into the stories and characters so well

    just overall your a great writer and keep writing :)

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  34. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG DON'T LEAVE US HANGING.

    beautiful story, thanks for this!

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  35. I loved this chapter! Edward really is a sweet guy, he just doesn't know it yet. All this turmoil he is feeling about Bella and he hasn't a clue that it's love, all encompassing love. That he wants to "make Love" to Bella is such a leap for him. Loved the long chapter. I am not getting notifications of updates so I have to keep checking to see when a new chapter is posted. I hope you are able to post soon on FF because this is a bit annoying, not only the fail on notifying for updates but trying to review.

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  36. He is trying so hard... My heart hurts for him... I am hoping fo rthe two of them...

    Jane

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  37. Loved the last few chapters, but especially this one. He is trying so hard to be something he does not know how to be for a reason he does not understand... but Bella does.

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  38. I think this has also been my favorite chapter so far... I loved his response to "do you even know how to make love?"

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  39. That was super intense.. Definitely my favorite chapter so far... What i would do to be in Bellas' shoes right now..

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  40. Oh my god! Where is Chapter 63? I want it now!
    This has been one of my favorite chapter so far.
    I loved the chapter, thanks.

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  41. What a great chapter! So glad that they are communicating a little more and the kissing was really sweet. But I really think that they need to hold off a little more and get the hell outta dodge! Don't think its such a good idea with that Lee douche lurking around. Edward really is falling hard. LOVE IT!

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  42. Bella is a very smart girl...Edward needs to get with the program.....such a good story!

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  43. Your question has me thinking, Savage, about what is the best thing Bella ad infinity.

    SE Hinton hid her identity so her novel The Outsiders would be accepted by male readers. The story is an allegory of mean girl clicks and Johnny’s death represents a social suicide such as teen pregnancy or say… writing about social taboos, like our too popular and exiled Savage.
    I can speak as someone who is marked by a condition that people speak about in whispers and raise money for but I prefer not to be identified by in these cruel to be kind circles. I am often handed a postage stamp of accepted emotions that I am allowed to express myself with, not the least, Voice In The Dark herder special: blow your brains out piece de I prefer to resist: thank you but no… really.
    For those of you who say you speak on behalf of my daughters and their possible imprisonment by white slavers, I suggest that your carte blanche censorship is a far worse danger to them and me.
    So back to your question: Bella has the right idea and is moving in the right direction for recovery. Bella can choose her cure as it is better than poison as it is HER choice. She can choose how she wants to remember her experience. In fact I have read published stories like this, but I find this one far more thoughtful. Just a wee reminder to lurkers: Savage can write this as it is HER FICTIONAL story and this is still a free country the last time I checked and she is not Salman Rushdie. Yet?
    My point earlier? Put on your helmet, Savage. Nothing worthwhile is easy. I think Bella can get from Edward something more from this experience than revenge and vengeance. So can you. She has to justify nothing to anyone but herself.

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  44. The beginning of their "relationship" was not only unconventional and wrong, it didn't work. They were both scared, nervous and lost. Because of how lost they both were, Bella who definitely has more brains than our lovely Dufus realized what he hasn't been able to yet. Even with her spelling it all out for him. She knows that the means he used to get it are absolutely wrong. She should still be angry with him, she can't. She has seen the true lost little guy inside the tough man who has been crumbling in front of her. What they have now isn't perfect, but it's not what it was at first, thankfully.
    Can he be what she needs? Can he give her that? As much as she can give him what he needs, what do you think?

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  45. OK...I'm gonna give Doofus the benefit of the doubt. Bella is the first woman he's ever loved, so he would be making love for the first time. He knows he loves her, but he's afraid....of what it will mean if he tells her, and then she leaves him.

    I say give it a go!
    xoSus

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  46. Your question has me thinking, Savage, about what is the best thing Bella ad infinity.

    SE Hinton hid her identity so her novel The Outsiders would be accepted by male readers. The story is an allegory of mean girl clicks and Johnny’s death represents a social suicide such as teen pregnancy or say… writing about social taboos, like our too popular and exiled Savage.
    I can speak as someone who is marked by a condition that people speak about in whispers and raise money for but I prefer not to be identified by in these cruel to be kind circles. I am often handed a postage stamp of accepted emotions that I am allowed to express myself with, not the least, Voice In The Dark herder special: blow your brains out piece de I prefer to resist: thank you but no… really.
    For those of you who say you speak on behalf of my daughters and their possible imprisonment by white slavers, I suggest that your carte blanche censorship is a far worse danger to them and me.
    So back to your question: Bella has the right idea and is moving in the right direction for recovery. Bella can choose her cure as it is better than poison as it is HER choice. She can choose how she wants to remember her experience. In fact I have read published stories like this, but I find this one far more thoughtful. Just a wee reminder to lurkers: Savage can write this as it is HER FICTIONAL story and this is still a free country the last time I checked and she is not Salman Rushdie. Yet?
    My point earlier? Put on your helmet, Savage. Nothing worthwhile is easy. I think Bella can get from Edward something more from this experience than revenge and vengeance. So can you. She has to justify nothing to anyone but herself.

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  47. I think a proper wedding night would be perfect. It would be good for both of them. And as for "lip love for his lolly" (lol by the way-never heard that one either), I think she will do it eventually. She just has to do it on her own, not be forced.
    Lovin' this story by the way!

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  48. (Okay, my google account keeps giving me errors, so I'm trying an anonymous post instead. This is Sarah speaking... :P )

    Whoa whoa...wait. Are they gonna do this NOW? Don't get me wrong, I'm all for the nookie, but as I said last time, what happened to getting the hell out of there before Lee and the posse show up?!? Get out of bed and take this up again in a safer place, lovebirds!

    Sorry for that. :-P Actually, apart from that little gripe, this has been my favorite chapter so far. The kissing was very sexy and sweet, and I loved the fact that they're communicating (at least to an extent). Bella finally spelled out for him what she can tell he needs, and the reason he wanted to buy a slave in the first place. Chew that one over, Doofus. Take your time.

    I do think Doofus is capable of making love...to Bella. Only to Bella. It was just sex to him before, yes, but he was never in love before. And whether he knows it or not, he’s in love now. The tender way he holds her and kisses her and brushes the strand of hair away from her face...all of that proves to me that he can do this. I think they both need this—her to help deal with what has been done to her, and him because he’s never been loved in this way before. But not in this bed, not in this house...not in Germany!

    And LOL at that paragraph about peanut butter and wonderbread and a screwdriver! Ah Doofus...

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  49. He is so sweet and Bella understands him so well. I think he is very capable of making love to Bella. And its amazing how Bella know what he wanted.

    I waited for a new chapter whole day and this was absolutely amazing! Loved this chapter. My fav so far :D

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  50. "lip love for his lolly"... so funny.. I've never heard that!

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  51. I don't know if he is capable. I think be wants to make love to Bella but immune sure he know the difference between sex and making love. MMM. I don't think Bella just wants sex. He loves her I think but he just dosent know what to do about it or maybe dosent totally recognize it. It will be very interesting to see where is goes with this..... Karen

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  52. Bella was so perceptive. Loved it.

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  53. awww how wonderful that he wants to do that for bella. i'm so glad she asked him that question. it's great that it'll be his first time too. cos he feels something for bella that he doesn't quite know what it is...once they make love i reckon he will know that it really is love that he feels for her! it's so hard for him cos he knows she's gonna be going back to her family soon.

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  54. I absolutely love SE Hinton's books. Rumble fish was my favorite. Very dark characters....just what I like. ;)

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  55. oaky are they really going to do it? my feeling now is we are going to get a new moon separation.. please say no!!

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  56. awwww poor edward!! i think it's great that he's becoming more attached to bella not really realising that he's probably falling in love with her if not already!! i'm glad she asked him that question and that it will be his first time too! i think once he makes love to her he will know for sure that it's love he feels for her!! excellent chapter!

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  57. I'm so happy that Bella told Edward why she wants him and essentially why he wants her. I hope that he can do this one thing for her and not mess it up.

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  58. Oh, crap! Why do I feel a ROYAL COCK-BLOCK coming on? OR-I can see it now; Soak in the tub by candlelight, get on with the festivities of "learning together" and while they are in their confusing, post-coital bliss they have visitors. The sneaky kind. While they are "learning" our friendly neighborhood middle man Lee (who we now find out is on a FBI human-trafficking task force infIltrating Aro's now defunct "organization") is going to show up with his people and Charlie will be with them. He will drag Bella back to Forks, and the FBI will arrest Edward on multiple charges. The Crew and The Pack will have to break Edward out of prison and they will have to kidnap Bella from Forks because Charlie will not let her leave. Bella will find out she is pregnant (from the "wedding night") while she is being held captive in Forks. Edward in prison for a few months could cover the "Edward leaving:New Moon" time everyone is talking about.

    Another reviewer has stated that Edward should take her to Paris...they went there first, remember? and really if I was in Bella's place I would care if it was where they are now or in a Motel6 in Scottsdale, AZ. Puhleaze! Hellooo, this is Edward we are talking about. js

    Savage-keep doing what you're doing cause your doing it right everytime. ;)

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  59. yeah edward! this will just go all smoothly!

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  60. Oh, I think he should do it. He has feelings for her. Real feelings. And she for him as well.

    Stephanie

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  61. odd how well she understands him... more than he understands himself by a longshot Pam B.

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  62. Understanding her perspective isn't possible right now because she sees the truth of him more than he sees it himself. It's enough that he recognizes that he really doesn't know why he did it at this point.

    They need to get out of there! I hope Edward realizes this and they do the wedding night thing at the next place. Otherwise, I shudder to think how they might be interupted.

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  63. Even as the words were trying to leave my mouth, I knew they were going to be about as dumb as trying to spread peanut butter on Wonder bread with the flat end of one of those big-ass screwdrivers everyone always has in their garage, even though no one ever has any screws that are big enough to be screwed with that sized driver. It would make a damn big mess, though – wouldn’t it? Kind of like what usually comes out of my mouth.

    Chapter made me think of this song...Boyz II Men -I'll Make Love To You

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fV8vB1BB2qc

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  64. What I tried to say is that I liked what I quoted back to you. Geez. Damn computer. It certainly isn't user error!! What? Don't look at me that way...............ROTF!!!!

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  65. whether they should or shouldn't get it on . . . they should definitely get the hell out of that house

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  66.  OK Eddieeeeeeee..................round of applause, hats off 2 ya. Bella really gets u an i know u guys feel a ting 4 each othr n wat nt but C'MON....are u tinkin wid ur othr head now?!?!? GET DA FCUK OUTTA THERE!!!!! I need dat WEDDING NITE SCN 2 go soooooooo smoothly, u kno i'm all for it. But I cant shake da feelin dat sumtin is comin, some newborn army of sorts......hahahaaaaaa.


    I was really diggin callin u Eddie, plz dont force me bk 2 DoucheWard!!!!!!!
    I'm glad cuz all fanfic center around E savin B most of the times but this one is kinda mutual. It is right?!?! He saved her from Aro n they, technically. An now she's savin him from HIMSELF. dats a demon rite thurrrrr but i'm glad she sees him. If only she cud get him 2 look thru da mirror as well cuz he def doesnt see the same thing she does. OK Eddie, make da move. U an Bells cud do da durddy anudda time!!!!!

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  67. So this could work with Carlie(if she can lie) Edward saves her, they fall in love and get married. It works, right? 

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  68. Why does Edward keep changing his mind? First he says no, now he says he'll make love to her.  

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  69. My line of thinking was right along with Bella's. Ummm, someone who wouldn't leave despite his crap, someone he can trust...dude, you wanted a wife!

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  70. Jesus!!! I don't know! LOL Is she even capable of making that choice? If he does it, is she later going to say he took advantage? Goodness, I'm worried for them.. Emotionally.. 



    FanFicCrazy

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  71. I will say it again x I think she just wants some power back.  I think he has to trust that she's capable of making a rational choice xx

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  72. awww how wonderful that he wants to do that for bella. i'm so glad she asked him that question. it's great that it'll be his first time too. cos he feels something for bella that he doesn't quite know what it is...once they make love i reckon he will know that it really is love that he feels for her! it's so hard for him cos he knows she's gonna be going back to her family soon.

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  73. Such complication but love is complicated isn't it?

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