Tuesday, April 26, 2011

CBWR? Chapter 59

Author’s notes:
I do have a little more info on the updates.  Basically, if I’m reading everything right, you’ll get one email update per day, regardless s of how many updates I do.  I set it to send out between 7-9:00pm Eastern US time (GMT – 5).  At this point, that’s all I got.  I tried another setting that *might* send you additional ones, but I won’t know until I post this.  Ha!
And now…on to the evilness!
A moment later, blinding headlights from a car coming up the drive burned into my retinas.

Chapter 59:
I dropped down in the plastic seat on the porch and reached out to the ground where my pack of cigarettes and lighter lay next to the brick wall.  I glanced at my watch to verify it was two minutes after midnight before I lit one and brought it to my lips.  I let the smoke into my lungs, and then blew it back out again with a big sigh.
I’d obviously fucked up again, big time.
What else was new?
I put my hand over my face and closed my eyes, thinking back to what had transpired just a couple of hours ago, and what the hell I could have done differently to make it any better.  Not surprisingly, I didn’t know what else I should have done.  If I had rejected her outright, we’d probably still be in this same situation right now.  If I had taken her to bed…
Fuck, what if I had?
I’d probably be laying there right now, with Bella in my arms, in the most intense post-coital bliss imaginable, that’s what.
I flipped the cigarette into my left hand and took another puff.  In the darkness, I could just barely see the glint off the gold band around my third finger. 
Married.
What the fuck did that mean, anyway?
Nothing.
I never thought I would be married, even under the circumstances that had necessitated this farce of a marriage.  As soon as Bella was safe she would go home to her parents and we’d get it all annulled or whatever.  I didn’t really even know what the whole institution of marriage was supposed to mean.  I was never going to have kids – no way in hell.  I wasn’t about to bring some kid into my fucked up life.  No one deserved that.
Bella was just a kid, really.  I’d brought her into my life, and look where that got her?  She was trying to seduce the asshole who bought her for sex, and I probably would have let her if she had just asked one more time.  If it had been anyone else in the world, I probably would have just rolled her over and fucked her on the couch.  Then I would have gotten up and left.  Maybe I would have called her again later.
Probably not.
She hadn’t even finished high school.
I wondered again why that was.
I leaned back in the chair a bit, and my fingers rubbed deep into my eyes, like maybe if I shoved my fingers into my eye sockets hard enough I’d stop thinking about all of this.  Thinking about it didn’t seem to help any, and it just left me feeling confused, stupid and useless.  My hand dropped, and I looked up into the clear fall sky.  All the stars were out, and this remote location had almost no light pollution at all, so I could see every point of light clearly.  As I stared, little flecks of light shot across the sky – tiny specks of dust blazing into a big fiery ball as it hit the atmosphere.
A moment later, blinding headlights from a car coming up the drive burned into my retinas.
Shit.
The cigarette forgotten, I pulled open the patio door, grabbed the H&K and checked the clip before trying to shove it into the elastic waistband of the lounge pants, which of course didn’t work. 
Shit.  Shit.  Shit.  
I pulled my jacket out of the closet, slipped the gun into the pocket, and went back out the patio door, leaving it open as I went and silently cursing myself for being so unprepared.  A couple months of non-violence and I had already lost my touch.
The car was pulling up alongside the rental we’d brought from Heidelberg.  I watched from around the corner as the engine turned off, the dome light went on, and the driver’s side door opened.  There didn’t appear to be anyone else in the car, just a single guy who pushed himself out of the car and looked towards the house.  The light was still on in the kitchen, and he cocked his head to one side to peer in.
I moved around the edge of the house, coming up silently behind him as he walked towards the door.  I lifted the gun up and aimed at the back of his neck.
“Don’t move,” I told him.  His steps halted, but he had enough sense to not turn around.  “Put your hands up on your head and tell me who the fuck you are and what the fuck you are doing here.”
He moved slowly, holding his hands out to the side as he brought them up over his head and laced his fingers together on the top.  I couldn’t see his face, and could only tell he was a tall guy and pretty big in general.   He took a long breath, held it a second, and then breathed back out.  My fingers tensed on the trigger. 
“Edward Cullen, I presume?”
Him knowing my name wasn’t necessarily a bad thing, right?

Chapter end notes:
Ohh…yeah…evil cliffie.  Who do youthink this guy is?
He waited until past midnight to smoke!  Good Doofus!
I’ll try to update again this evening.

100 comments:

  1. GAH! Again with the cliffies???? hahaha

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  2. EEEPPPP thats a really mean Cliffy LOL

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  3. I had fallen so behind on reading this (real life sucks like that) and was so disappointed when I clicked the alert link in my e-mail that I had saved only to discover it wasn't there. I hate it when that happens to wonderful stories and to exceptional authors. I'm so glad you've found a new home for it though and I'm enjoying the new updates. It really is a fabulous story. Poor Emoward....he'll get it right one day :) Can't wait for the next chapter!!!

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  4. yea! Good doofus! He kept his word. I have no idea who this is. FBI? LOL?

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  5. WTH! Damn cliffies need to leave my favorite stories alone :D

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  6. is it Charlie Swan??!!!

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  7. Other reveiws say Charlie...but I don't think so...

    Someone Alice sent...that would be my guess...

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  8. Dang cliffs! I suppose it could be Charlie, but I think its too soon for that. Some kind of messenger maybe? But why after midnight?

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  9. please for the love of god and all the holey dont let it by jake ! he an ass. it gone be seth to do the EMP on bella chip :)

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  10. well hell! who the hell is this guy and yes it is can be bad that he knows you Doofus!

    please tell me you are going to grace us with at least one more chapter today right?

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  11. my guess is: Carlise with news about disabling the chip!

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  12. Cute that he waited to smoke till after midnight, it shows that he really keeps his word. But instead of talking to himself, he should be talking to Bella. As for the cliffie: I don't think it's Charlie (he would have come with the cavalry), I think it's someone Rose sent to deactivate Bella's chip.

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  13. *Gasp* Oh no you didn't! What a cliffie!
    Who is it? LOL!

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  14. :) yes, a i would say is a bad thing.

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  15. Oh NOOOOOO! Is it Charlie? lol You and your evil cliffies. thanks

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  16. Oh Savage...
    What a cliffe you evil woman...
    Love this fic... so much.. sigh is he EVER gonna get it... ???

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  17. Awww, what a evil cliffie ;-)) Love this story!

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  18. Oh no, you have done it again!!! You just left us with a mean cliffie. That guy better be the "techie" who can disarm Bella's chip.

    Why must you give Edward a conscience; he could already have post-coital bliss- just sayin'...


    Sweets

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  19. Oh, goodie, anonymous comments! For some reason I'm not able to review with my LiveJournal account...
    Anyway, love the blog! And love where the story is going so far, the changes in Edward and the dynamics of their relationship.
    I'm curious who is it... but by the fact that he's unprepared (or so it seems), I would guess a courier or something innocent like that... Let's see :)
    Thank you.

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  20. it can only be FIL .... poor Edward... the title of this story should be It Can't Be Worse ...

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  21. Hey Savage,
    Have not read this new update yet but wanted to let you know that I sent you a PM through ff.net
    It basically explains something that I'm working on that could help you with the automatic email alerts for CBWR.
    Let me know if you want to try it :)

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  22. Hey there lady!!!
    I was looking for you everywhere, well not in the right places, until someone(God bess her soul) took pitty on me and directed me here, thankGod I found you, this is awesome, love the new place, hope your happy here, I know I am cause everything is here all the good stuff, anyway, thanks for not giving up on this one, still love it, and even thought he's a Doofus I still love him, I hope for a quick update, up don't worry no presure, we'll wait, for you, dude, you know we all do.
    Thanks again!!
    Mgg1606

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  23. Love it as always! Can't wait for the next one.

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  24. Oh, god. Is it Daddy Dearest? Shit, shit, shit... that scares me more than Aro and Company...

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  25. im guessing charlie

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  26. Hm...I really doubt it's Charlie, and isn't it too soon for it to be someone Rose sent? Truly, I'm stumped.

    And why do I have the nagging feeling that Bella not being finished with high school yet even though she's 19 is important for some reason?

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  27. OMG... I think Charlie.. but not sure at all.. O.o.. he would've recognized Charlie from the picture in the paper...- MoniNP

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  28. Oh, Rightward? Rightward? *shakes head* When are are ya gonna catch a break?
    But I'm also guessing Charlie.
    /CaraNo

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  29. *Excellent* cliffie! :)
    I wonder if this is a messenger from one of the Scooby gang to warn them to get the heck out of Germany (and head to France?)....

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  30. I gonna go with Charlie..but somehow I think that it will be someone else..

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  31. Must be the doctor coming to disable the chip. Is his name Carlisle? We haven't seen him yet.

    Poor Doofusward. He really is trying hard, but he's so clueless. He has no frame of reference for relationships, caring for someone else, etc. He wants to be loved, but doesn't even know what that means.

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  32. Oh you evil woman you. Who is it? Charlie? Nah. At this point Charlie would be coming to kill him I dare say! I give up. Next chapter?

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  33. Savage
    ah, what do I say. Big guy? Jacob? hope not. I still fee so sorry for Edward. :( Wish his life was easier and loving.

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  34. Damn you... LOL

    I don't think its Charlie. Carlisle maybe???

    ~Queenbeee78

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  35. OK, my first instinct was to say "Charlie", but I really don't think it's him. So, I'm gonna go with either Carlisle the EMP specialist who will disable Bella's chip so she can go home, or (perhaps) Jake, a P.I. hired by Charlie to find Bella.
    Oh, and PLEASE, let the poor guy "get" something worthwhile (would be nice if the something were Bella, but Edward's right about how crazy and unimaginable that would be long-term). He's really been sweet (in a gangster type of way) and deserves something to make him happy!
    Thanx for all the fun! - annah

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  36. Tall and big? I don't recall Charlie being big... but he was my first guess)

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  37. Ok after the A/N about Jacob coul the late night visitor be Jacob? Just not Bella's sweetheart

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  38. When I read tall and big I always think Emmett, but we already know Emmett, so it's not him of course. And second I think Jake...talk about getting worse; that would be too much worse! I noticed a couple people thought it was someone to disable the chip, and I think that's a good guess. But was it not supposed to be two weeks? Plus would Rose have called and let him know someone was coming? So of course I do not know. Maybe it is someone coming to thank Edward for killing all the bad people!! But no, I do not think it is a good thing that the guy knows his name! At least Edward is still wearing the honesty badge for Bella. He waited until after midnight to smoke!

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  39. I'm still holding onto my "Charlie Is Dead" theory, so I don't think it's him. Who can it be though? If he was with "the bad guys", the others would've warned Edward, right? Right??? Damn, I'm biting nails waiting for the update.

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  40. like everyone else, going nuts trying to figure out who is at the house. Several have said Charlie, but my gut says no. Figuring someone who has something to do with the chip. Have you had a Garrett in the story yet?..lol... you know you are driving us all crazy girl..

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  41. You have such a liking for cliffies, and you know how to write them. Who could it be? How did he find them?
    Edward might have not been entirely prepared, but he did a good job surprising their unexpected guest. Plenty of points and treats for him!!! Add these to the ones for waiting until midnight to smoke and if he already deserved a brake, he has to get one and soon!!!!
    What can I say? I've fallen for Doufus.

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  42. Good job waiting until after midnight to smoke. My first thought was Charlie, but I don't think so. Thanks for another great chapter!

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  43. Fuck. Cliffie.

    I have no idea who this dude is. Maybe its someone Alice sent to go check up on Doofy and his bride?... You know make sure he's keeping it in his pants? :)

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  44. Oh no you didn't! That was a cruel cliffie. Just cruel. One more tonight... please? Pretty please?

    *bats eyelashes*

    I'm going to go out on a limb and say that the big guy is there to help Edward and Bella - not harm them.

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  45. You are so evil...
    I hope that it's Charlie. He he. That would be fun.

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  46. Like everyone else, my first thought was Charlie but I don't think he would come without the entire Interpol. I know you hate Jake so I doubt it is him but you said he is big and Felix is already dead. Rose would have told Edward if she was sending someone about the chip. I DON'T KNOW!! For the love of goodness, don't keep us hanging for long!!! I really can't take it...

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  47. Im addicted to the cliffies too...I know ridiculous!!!! Im gonna go with Charlie, but I keep thinking we haven't meet Carlisle yet have we?

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  48. What a cliffie ! I just can't see who could that be ?? I don't think it's Charlie... but I just can't imagine who could come there, after midnight! Thanks so much for the update :)

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  49. Goodness! You & your cliffies woman! LOL... I forgive you because I love this story that damn much!

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  50. Queen O' the Cliffies! I neeeeed mooooore ;)

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  51. It sure sounds like Charlie Swan... could it be? I hope not because Bella and Edward have only just started to talk and are so far away from figuring out anything let alone if they will try to figure out how and what they will be to each other in the future. They need time to have a cover story to tell Charlie at least. Could Charlie forgive Edward for the fact that he has protected her, has not taken advantage of her and has taken care of all the assholes who ever hurt his daughter and Renee in ways that he (Charlie) would never be able to legally do although certainly would like to.
    I was so looking forward to Bella reaching out to Edward in the middle of the night.... soon I hope. Loved it anyways, but you know I think the last chapter was a cliffy too.
    Rory Cullen

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  52. Evil Ms. Savage!
    I think it's ..........
    (my own cliffie!)

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  53. Oh Thank God! I thought I was going mad without this story as FF didn't send any emails and I didn't know you'd moved ~ I'm so happy though as I got a lovely long read in and an awsome cliffie ~ yay!!!!

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  54. Love Love Love this story i am so glad you didn't just let it die because of fanfiction

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  55. Now I wanna smoke...btw, got 3 updates today, feedburner will send out once a day with 3 at the most, no more than that ;)

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  56. Awesome but need to read next there better be a next so gotta go byebye

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  57. Edward waiting to smoke shows just how soft on Bella he really has gone :)

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  58. Well now, maybe this is where Jake comes in. Edward had seen a picture of Bella's parents online so he would have recognized Charlie if it was him, sooo...

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  59. ok new people coming in to get their head blown off! oh no!

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  60. Edward’s attitude to marriage and children is just what can be expected from him – he doesn’t understand why people need to relate to each other and how they do it, and the experience with his family doesn’t give him any reason to need a family and children.
    Before reading the next chapter, I thought that the man is Jacob.

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  61. ?!! Please tell me it's not Jacob.. aghhk

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  62. The guy could be absolutely anyone, but I doubt it's someone sent by his "friends" because Edward would have gotten a heads up. So I'm thinking it's bad.

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  63. Hmm, the high school reference is obviously important - Bella must have missed a period of her education, thus delaying her graduation, which could have been for a number of reasons, maybe her illness or that of a relative - she never talks about Charlie, so I'm wondering if maybe he's ill or that he's even dead. I note a few reviewers think Edward's late-night visitor might be Charlie, but there's no way he'd be so calm, or turn up alone, and I'd be very surprised if he could even find their hiding place or know Edward's name. It seems too soon for it to be someone coming to deal with Bella's chip, so I'm a bit stumped, unless it's some kind of messenger from Aro's organisation, coming to try and do a deal - but again, it's not likely anyone would find this hide-out as I'm thinking that not even Edward's associates know exactly where he is.

    Ooh, this is such a cliffie, I'm desperate for another update!

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  64. So is it Jacob? Charlie? Maybe an associate? I'm so glad I dont have to wait for the next chapter!

    Stephanie

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  65. Could it be Charlie? Unlikely, but I have no clue who it is...

    Anyway, for E & B to have any chance at being together, he needs to change the way he feels about himself and even make major changes in his life, so that he stops feeling it is so fucked up...

    EnamoredHeart

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  66. oh maaaaaan cliffies suck to the depths of hell!!!lol!! anyways i'm thinkin that maybe it's charlie?!!! idk it's kinda hard to say...i'm surprised anyone even knows where they are!! i love how edward just snuck up behind him and stuck the gun to his head!! his protective and self preservation instincts just kicking right in!! and edward is those lounge pants...mmmhmmm!lol!

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  67. it's charlie! right?!?!

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  68. it's charlie! right?!?!

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  69. Now I wanna smoke...btw, got 3 updates today, feedburner will send out once a day with 3 at the most, no more than that ;)

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  70. Goodness! You & your cliffies woman! LOL... I forgive you because I love this story that damn much!

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  71. Im addicted to the cliffies too...I know ridiculous!!!! Im gonna go with Charlie, but I keep thinking we haven't meet Carlisle yet have we?

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  72. You are so evil...
    I hope that it's Charlie. He he. That would be fun.

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  73. You have such a liking for cliffies, and you know how to write them. Who could it be? How did he find them?
    Edward might have not been entirely prepared, but he did a good job surprising their unexpected guest. Plenty of points and treats for him!!! Add these to the ones for waiting until midnight to smoke and if he already deserved a brake, he has to get one and soon!!!!
    What can I say? I've fallen for Doufus.

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  74. Ok after the A/N about Jacob coul the late night visitor be Jacob? Just not Bella's sweetheart

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  75. Oh you evil woman you. Who is it? Charlie? Nah. At this point Charlie would be coming to kill him I dare say! I give up. Next chapter?

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  76. Oh, Rightward? Rightward? *shakes head* When are are ya gonna catch a break?
    But I'm also guessing Charlie.
    /CaraNo

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  77. Love it as always! Can't wait for the next one.

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  78. Hey Savage,
    Have not read this new update yet but wanted to let you know that I sent you a PM through ff.net
    It basically explains something that I'm working on that could help you with the automatic email alerts for CBWR.
    Let me know if you want to try it :)

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  79. it can only be FIL .... poor Edward... the title of this story should be It Can't Be Worse ...

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  80. Oh Savage...
    What a cliffe you evil woman...
    Love this fic... so much.. sigh is he EVER gonna get it... ???

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  81. is it Charlie Swan??!!!

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  82. I had fallen so behind on reading this (real life sucks like that) and was so disappointed when I clicked the alert link in my e-mail that I had saved only to discover it wasn't there. I hate it when that happens to wonderful stories and to exceptional authors. I'm so glad you've found a new home for it though and I'm enjoying the new updates. It really is a fabulous story. Poor Emoward....he'll get it right one day :) Can't wait for the next chapter!!!

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  83. EEEPPPP thats a really mean Cliffy LOL

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  84. can't even start to guess who it is

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  85. Whoa? No idea who that is. Probably bad though.
    ~Jessi

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  86. Whoaaaaaaaaaaaaa there, dat CLIFFIE shot me jus like hw Alice had wished 2 end Eddie a few chapters aback!!!!!!...............where da fcuk did that cum from!!!!!!!!! And who da hell is dat??  My guess is 2........1) Cud b Charlie & i pray 2 God, its nt. Well nt yet, at least!!!!! and 2) Mayb u were jokin about Jacob bein the high shool sweetheart thing....but cud this b the Jacob character, i've been so longing to see??? Evn if it is....wats his role in all of this?!?!? Well bend me ovr n fcuk me brutal.......I gotta get 2 dat othr chapt ASAP!!!!

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  87. Dun dun dun. I'm not even going to try and guess who the guy is since I'll find out next chapter anyway. ;-)

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  88. Hmmmmm...maybe it's the owner of the house? 

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  89. I'm guessing.... Charlie???? I don't think it is really but I love Charlie so a girl can hope right?

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  90. Is it Charlie????????

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  91. LilacfieldsforeverJune 14, 2011 at 3:08 PM

    I have to say that is one thing I notice with your Edward when he tells Bella he won't do something or he will do something he does it.  Which is very interesting.

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