Sunday, May 8, 2011

CBWR? Chapter 75

Author's notes:
Hope everyone out ther has had a wonderful weekend!  Here's a quick update for you.  Enjoy!
“You’re in love.”
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Chapter 75:
“You have some nerve,” Kate snapped.  “I’m hanging up now.”
“No!  Kate…Kate please,” I begged her.  If she hung up I would be totally lost.  “Please don’t hang up on me.  I need your help…please.” 
I heard her sigh into the phone, and her voice came back strained.
“Just spit it out,” she said.
“I need some…advice,” I finally said quietly.  It suddenly hit me how freaking stupid it was to be calling an ex-girlfriend for advice on wooing the current one, if she could be called that.  What as Bella to me?  Ex-slave?  Current girlfriend?  Wife?  Lover?
Life.
I had no idea what to call her.
“You need advice?  From me?  Really, Edward?  You were never interested in my opinion about anything at any time – what could you possibly want from me now?”
How did I even go about telling her what was happening?  Spit it out, just like she said.  Well, a slightly modified version, anyway.
“I…met someone,” I started.
“Congrats.  Hope you treat her better than you did me.”
“That’s just it,” I said.  “I want to make this right…I want to make it special, but I don’t know how.”
“What?” Kate yelled into the phone.  “You are asking me how to help you with your new fucktoy?  Oh my God…”
“She’s not!” I yelled back, and then quickly lowered my voice before I drew anyone out into the hallway.  “It’s not like that…not at all.  I want it to be right this time.  I know I screwed everything up in the past – I don’t want to fuck this up.   It’s her birthday, and I want to give her a special night – I just don’t know what to do.  I’m sorry I didn’t do anything right with you, okay?  Just tell me what I can do to make it special for her!”
I waited to hear the click of the disconnected call, but it didn’t come.
“Edward,” Kate’s voice had suddenly turned soft.  “You are completely serious, aren’t you?”
“Yeah,” I said.
“You’re in love.”
I closed my eyes and thought about her words.  I didn’t know how to respond.
“I want it to be right,” I finally said.
“You are,” she replied.  “Edward Cullen, capable of love.  Who would have thought it could be true?”
He tone was dry and a little sardonic, but I chose to ignore it.
“It…it doesn’t matter,” I finally whispered into the phone.  “I just want to make it all good…for her.  I don’t know what to do Kate.  You know I don’t have any friends, please…please help me?”
“What do you want to know?” Kate said with a sigh.
“How do I make a nice, romantic birthday night for her?  What can I do to show her I mean it?”
“Honestly, Edward,” Kate said, her voice sounding…sad?  I wasn’t sure.  “I don’t know if I should feel jealous that you couldn’t feel this way about me or happy that you are able to feel at all.  I had my doubts.”
“I’m sorry,” I said quietly.  “I didn’t mean to hurt you…really, I didn’t.”
“I think I know that now.”
“I don’t think I’m quite right in the head, you know?” I offered a slight laugh.
“Yes, Edward – I got that idea.”  I could hear Kate sighing on the other end f the line. 
“She must be pretty special,” she finally said
“She is,” whispered back.  “She’s my world…my life.”
There was a pause on the phone that lasted so long, I was afraid the connection had failed.  Then I heard Kate’s voice again.
“I would have been that for you,” she said softly.
I didn’t know how to respond to her.  I honestly didn’t realize she ever would have felt that way, and I certainly didn’t understand why. 
“I’m sorry,” I finally responded.
“You’ve apologized three times in the last three minutes,” she said.  “Do you realize you never once apologized for anything ever before?  Not the numerous times I sat waiting in a restaurant for you to arrive, only to find out you forgot about our date, not the time you stopped having sex with me to answer the phone and then abruptly left without an explanation, not all the times I asked where you had been all week when you hadn’t picked up the phone.  Not once.”
I would have apologized again, but I wasn’t sure if I should.  I barely remembered anything she was talking about.
“She’s really done something to you,” Kate surmised. 
“She has,” I agreed.  The more I said it, the more I knew it was true.
“I’ll help you, Edward,” Kate said with a loud exhale.  “At least, I’ll tell you what I would have liked.”
“Thank you,” I replied.
“Humph.  You never thanked me for anything, either.”
“I’m…sorry.”
Kate laughed.
“Thank you for apologizing, Edward,” she said.  “Not let’s get you a plan together, all right?  I think simple is the only way to go.”
Ten minutes later I had three simple things I was supposed to accomplish for Bella’s birthday.  It seemed so little when I thought about it, but I had to go with what Kate had told me, because I didn’t have anything else to go on.
“Thank you,” I said softly.  “I never would have come up with any of this by myself.  And I know it’s way too late, but for what it is worth, I am sorry I hurt you.”
“Good luck, Edward,” Kate said, and the phone went silent.
I got up off the floor and went back to the hotel room door.  Bella was still sleeping with her hair and arms and legs all over the place.  She was so beautiful, and I didn’t deserve to have her with me, but I was going to do everything I could to make her birthday a good one.
I could make it special, right?
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Chapter end notes:
Lucky, lucky Doofusward - the ex didn't shut you down.  You might just earn a box of scooby snacks if you can pull this off.

I might have another chapter out later tonight - we'll see.  If not, tomorrow.

62 comments:

  1. Love it. Glad he's admitting to the depth of his feelings :) /CaraNo

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  2. Fabulous chapter! I can't wait for more ;)

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  3. Love love love this story. Finally he is starting to realize how much he really needs her. I can't wait for the next chapter.
    Also Happy Mothers Day i hope it was a good one.

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  4. Kate really is a kind person. Doofy is lucky about that.

    Happy Mother's Day Savage and thanks for the lovely chapter!

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  5. mostly a lurkerMay 8, 2011 at 4:34 PM

    Awwww, sweet doofy! His sincere apology and appreciation of kate's assistance were so heartfelt, my eyes watered just a bit. He's trying SO hard, and not just for/to Bella, but to others, too.

    Sweet, sweet little boy in a man's body.
    Thanks, Shay

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  6. Three simple things...hmmm..I hope Kate's advice was good..not sure Doofus would know if it wasn't. Hope you had a happy mom's day...thanks for the update :)
    weedstert

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  7. He actually changed!

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  8. Very sweet! He has finally admitted and realized his feelings for Bella. He is still lost though. Kinda feel sorry for him. Yes, I think he needs a big box of scooby snacks for just trying and caring. Let's see how he does and how Bella reacts . I hope he gets it right for him and for her.

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  9. Iove this chapter. Doodus is really lucky to hv such a kind Ex.

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  10. Happy Mothers' Day!

    Kate turned out to be a better person than I thought she'd be. Good for Edward. I'm glad he kind of made peace with Kate by apologizing and thanking her :) Let's hope he won't fuck it up for Bella now.

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  11. Wow, I'm impressed. Both by his tenacity and by her willingness to help him after the way he treated her. But I imagine she was just so shocked that she had to do something to acknowledge that he's changed.

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  12. Happy Mothers day! Great chapter, Kate is a bigger person than me. lol Can't wait to see what the 3 things are. thanks Savage

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  13. The conversation with Kate was very interesting. It revealed how their relationship was, and showed how very far he has already come.

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  14. I love Kate, and I don't even know her! Her telling Edward they needed to keep it simple made me think of me dealing with my son. I can't tell him more than three things at a time, or he gets confused! Good luck to Edward on his date...

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  15. i knew she would. she had to, edward had none else.

    ;)

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  16. i have mixed emotions about this chapter. On one hand he was a true prick huh? answering the phone while having sex? WTF On the other he is truly trying to redeem himself not only for what he did with Bella but I think he finally see what an prick he was. i will make my decision after the birthday night which will probably be 10 chaplets from noW

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  17. I will give him a whole case of scooby snacks if he can pull this off! But I really do not think he is going to need that kind of motivation. He is learning things like "I'm sorry" and "Thank you", and I believe he can take whatever advice Kate gave him and plan something special, though simple, to make Bella's birthday special. And why do I believe in him? Because, like Kate said, he is in love, and because, like Edward said, Bella is his "world" and his "life". How sweet is that?

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  18. Oh how addicted to this story I am that when I see an update I freak and drop everything to read. Bella is changing Edward slowly and it's a wonderful thing to see.

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  19. I love youuuuuu! You're the best despite being so mean to Doofusward

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  20. yeah!!!!!!! scooby snack for doufus!!!!!!yipi!!!! hahah eleos.... hm, know he will think what kate told him?? that he is in love... i bet if he think about it he will understand that he really is. and as nancym5 said i, too, am addicted to this story. i cant wait for the next update.....!!!!

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  21. *crying* 10 more chapter until the birthday night??


    *laughing*


    so, please savage, i beg you don't be so cruel as to let as wait 10 more chapters until the THE night...

    hahaha

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  22. Oh god, I hope Kate is not vengeful.. If she is, I hope doofus knows the difference.

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  23. Happy Mother's Day!! Hope you enjoyed your waffles. Thanks muchly for the update. Was sweet of Kate to aide Edward. She is a good person to help after he obviously treated her like poop when they were together. Sounds like the "I m sorry"'s really got to Kate..... as we say in the south.. Bless her heart.... give Doofus a scooby snack for showing the ex how much he's changed and wanting to make things right for Bella.. Pam B.

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  24. Wow. Loved his revelation of him thinking of her as his 'life'. I'm so scared for him now that he's opening-up to these feelings. So fragile w/o even knowing it. So good.

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  25. Well that went quite well, all things considered. Bella has had a remarkable effect on him. For the first time in his life, he cares enough to put in the effort.

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  26. Looks like Edward is definitely redeemable...and it looks like Bella is the one to help him out....good for both of them....Love this story!

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  27. Edward has grown so much since he was with Kate. Some of what happened to Bella and her fear and pain but also her strength and determination to survive probably he can relate to. Thanks for making Kate nice enough to help him... I think. Bella has brought Eddie to life and means everything to him, I have a feeling he is becoming her's as well. Thanks for the update.

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  28. Doofus was REALLY lucky that Kate didn't just tell him to f*ck off, right? I hope she didn't give him bad advice! Bella deserves a great b'day!

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  29. Yes, he was very, very lucky. Kate must still be in shock by it. She is agood person, she told him what he needs to do, now lets just hope he is able to pull it off.

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  30. am i the only one wondering why the HELL kate stuck with him?! besides the fact that he's totally hot, and probably great in bed, and so messed up that you just want to help him...oh, yeah, right. got it....

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  31. Edward has really made so progres hasn't he. I love it.

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  32. I don't know how you do it, but you've created an amazing Edward.

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  33. The conversation with Kate showed a lot about Edward - he didn't understand the simplest things, which were expected from him!
    " I just want to make it all good…for her." - It feels like he doesn't want to do this just for himself (to not screw up and to keep Bella), but he really thinks of her and wants it for her, too. This is a great change and is what Bella could love him for.

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  34. Well, he is proving to others he is turning a leaf. Now lets see him show more feelings to Bella. And right off the bat someone told him he is in love and he still needs to assess that one. He has a long way to go but he has started. All thanks to a great woman.

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  35. Well that went a lot more smoothly than I thought it would.....

    I was cringing just imagining Kate telling him, him raising his voice, waking Bella, Bella coming in and finding him on the phone w/ his ex, getting really pissed that he's on the phone w/ his ex while she can't call her mom, etc.


    Am extremely happy to be wrong... but hell, I usually anyway. So... I think that the next ch won't involve any sexin' whatsoever....... ;P

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  36. Awww, Doofy, you have done good :-) I hope Bella likes her Birthday.

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  37. Absolutely loved this chapter. You really showed how much Edward has changed from the first chapter when Kate was leaving his office. His apology to her was so sincere and it was obvious she needed to hear it and he needed to say it. His growth throughout this story is amazing. His "buying" Bella was both the worst and best thing he could have ever done. As despicable as it was to buy a slave, it made him learn some hard truths about himself...how lonely he is, how disconnected from people he is, how much he needs to love and be loved, and how he might be able to rectify all of it. But it is HER, BELLA, that has made him feel and see things. It is sad to think that if he hadn't wanted a sex slave he would still be a selfish lonely prick. Did I mention that I am addicted to this story?

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  38. That was really sad.

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  39. This chapter was incredibly sweet. Making plans for Bella, realizing that she's what he really wants and needs, and making amends with the ex. He's really growing.

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  40. Merina Green LOL, I think that's just true of men in general. I tell my boyfriend I need him to run to the store and that I'll make him a list. He tries to say he can "remember" but I know if I give him more than three items he's likely to forget everything and just come home with a bag of candy bars.

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  41. Bag o candy bars and a box of condoms... what else would he need? LOL

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  42. Awwww! He finding his sweet inner boy! Loved Kate. lol


    Thanks!!

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  43. okay didn't get the alert for this chapter but did for the last! so i read them backwards... oh welli guess i am taking after doofusward!

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  44. aw - he's trying AND he's in love but doesn't know it!

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  45. I am so surprised that Kate didn't hang up on him...I seriously am. I don't know if I could have helped him plan a nice surprise for another after what all they seemingly went through.

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  46. aw. he's kinda sweet in a kidnap you and take you around the world psycho kind of way

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  47. Aw savage, this was just too sweet. Dufus is such a dufus. This chap cracked me up.

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  48. very surprised that kate stuck around as long as she did and fell that much for him when he treated her like that. at least she was nice enough to help him

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  49. OMG! What a complete moron! Was he really surprised women left him all the
    time, when he treated them as objects without value? I think Kate needed his
    apologies, if not for what he's done, at least to mend her broken self esteem.
    She obviously put up with too much from him.

    He was lucky to have her advice, but this conversation showed me how much he
    lost in life, where love and friendship are concerned, because of his emotional
    ineptitude.

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  50. omg in my haste to read this story so much i skipped a couple of chapters,,kinda realising it but not really taking much notice!lol what a frickin dork! nice chapter!

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  51. He's running out of time. Something better happen soon.  

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  52.  OH MYYYYYY....................all those tings Eddie dis to Kate *shakes head* u were a bad bad boy Eddie, a real DoucheWard indeed!!!! Surprisingly & luckily enuff, she din leav u in the shade!!!!! I was glad the apologies n stuf came as well. Its nevr too late 2 end off ona good not, is it??? He really has matured from the DOUCHE he was introduced as........Bells really changed him for da gud. No wonda he's sooooo drawn to her!!!!

    & Eddie's in love....YAYYYYYYY. I only hope Bells feels the same way. She may feel for him, a little, but LOVE???? not too sure yet!!!! Key word bein YET!!!!SUPER ANXIOUS to hear out these 3 plans............Hope he sweeps Bella off of her feet *PUN DEFINITELY INTENDED* hahaaaaaa

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  53. I'm glad Kate decided to help him. I know that if I was treated the way Edward treated her I don't think I would have acted the same way. 

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  54. Wow, I'm surprised she didn't hang up anyway. Can't wait to see what he does.

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  55. That was awfully nice of Kate.. But then, he's nice now.. If a woman really cares for a man.. She can never hate him if he's sincere.. Sometimes that sucks but it's true.. Yay Kate! :)

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  56. Kate is a better woman than I! And Edward didn't deny that he was in love! He didn't exactly confirm it, but...

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  57. I'm glad Kate decided to help him. I know that if I was treated the way Edward treated her I don't think I would have acted the same way. 

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  58. Iove this chapter. Doodus is really lucky to hv such a kind Ex.

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  59. Very sweet! He has finally admitted and realized his feelings for Bella. He is still lost though. Kinda feel sorry for him. Yes, I think he needs a big box of scooby snacks for just trying and caring. Let's see how he does and how Bella reacts . I hope he gets it right for him and for her.

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